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 Then he wanted to look indoors. I said I was in a hurry, I couldn't wait. He'd come back -- "Just tell me a day." I wouldn't have it. I said I got a lot of requests. He went on nosing, he even started threatening me with an order to view, the Ancient Monuments people (whoever they are) would back him up, really offensive, and slimy at the same time. In the end he just drove off. It was all bluff on his part, but that was the sort of thing I had to think about.

 I took the photos that evening. Just ordinary, of her sitting reading. They came out quite well.

 One day about then she did a picture of me, like returned the compliment. I had to sit in a chair and look at the corner of the room. After half an hour she tore up the drawing before I could stop her. (She often tore up. Artistic temperament, I suppose.)

 I'd have liked it, I said. But she didn't even reply to that, she just said, don't move.

 From time to time she talked. Mostly personal remarks.

 "You're very difficult to get. You're so featureless. Everything's nondescript. I'm thinking of you as an object, not as a person."

 Later she said, "You're not ugly, but your face has all sorts of ugly habits. Your underlip is worst. It betrays you." I looked in the mirror upstairs, but I couldn't see what she meant.

 Sometimes she'd come out of the blue with funny questions.

 "Do you believe in God?" was one.

 Not much, I answered.

 "It must be yes or no."

 I don't think about it. Don't see that it matters.

 "You're the one imprisoned in a cellar," she said.

 Do you believe, I asked.

 "Of course I do. I'm a human being."

 She said, stop talking, when I was going on.

 She complained about the light. "It's this artificial light. I can never draw by it. It lies."

 I knew what she was getting at, so I kept my mouth shut.

 Then again -- it may not have been that first morning she drew me, I can't remember which day it was -- she suddenly came out with, "You're lucky having no parents. Mine have only kept together because of my sister and me."

 How do you know, I said.

 "Because my mother's told me," she said. "And my father. My mother's a bitch. A nasty ambitious middle-class bitch. She drinks."

 I heard, I said.

 "I could never have friends to stay."

 I'm sorry, I said. She gave me a sharp look, but I wasn't being sarcastic. I told her about my father drinking, and my mother.

 "My father's weak, though I love him very much. Do you know what he said to me one day? He said, I don't know how two such bad parents can have produced two such good daughters. He was thinking of my sister, really. She's the really clever one."

 You're the really clever one. You won a big scholarship.

 "I'm a good draughtsman," she said. "I might become a very clever artist, but I shan't ever be a great one. At least I don't think so."

 You can't tell, I said.

 "I'm not egocentric enough. I'm a woman. I have to lean on something." I don't know why but she suddenly changed the subject and said, "Are you a queer?"

 Certainly not, I said. I blushed, of course.

 "It's nothing to be ashamed of. Lots of good men are." Then she said, "You want to lean on me. I can feel it. I expect it's your mother. You're looking for your mother."

 I don't believe in all that stuff, I said.

 "We'd never be any good together. We both want to lean."

 You could lean on me financially, I said.

 "And you on me for everything else? God forbid."

 Then, here, she said and held out the drawing. It was really good, it really amazed me, the likeness. It seemed to make me more dignified, better-looking than I really was.

 Would you consider selling this, I asked?

 "I hadn't, but I will. Two hundred guineas?"

 All right, I said.

 She gave me another sharp look.

 "You'd give me two hundred guineas for that?"

 Yes, I said. Because you did it.

 "Give it to me." I handed it back and before I knew what, she was tearing it across.

 Please don't, I said. She stopped, but it was torn half across.

 "But it's bad, bad, bad." Then suddenly she sort of threw it at me. "Here you are. Put it in a drawer with the butterflies."

 The next time I was in Lewes I bought her some more records, all I could find by Mozart, because she liked him, it seemed.

 Another day she drew a bowl of fruit. She drew them about ten times, and then she pinned them all up on the screen and asked me to pick the best. I said they were all beautiful but she insisted so I plumped for one.

 "That's the worst," she said. "That's a clever little art student's picture." She said, "One of them is good. I know it is good. It is worth all the rest a hundred times over. If you can pick it in three guesses you can have it for nothing when I go. If I go. If you don't, you must give me ten guineas for it."

 Well, ignoring her dig I had three guesses, they were all wrong. The one that was so good only looked half-finished to me, you could hardly tell what the fruit were and it was all lop-sided.

 "There I'm just on the threshold of saying something about the fruit. I don't actually say it, but you get the idea that I might. Do you feel that?"

 I said I didn't actually.

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