MirrorWorld

She nods. “There’s no other way to test a man who is as hard to kill as you. Lyons’s words. But his confidence in your abilities seems to have been well founded. Frankly, I’m surprised that you didn’t burn this place to the ground.”

“It was on my to-do list.”

“And now?”

“I’m not sure.”

“Then let’s make you sure.” She motions to the window. “Surreality awaits.”

I stand and step around the breakfast table. With a tug, the shade launches up, slapping against the window frame as the powerful spring turns it too many times.

The window is vertical, part of the story-tall steps running down two sides of the building. The view outside is what I remember. New Hampshire in summer. Green and blue. And …

Something else.

“What’s that?” I ask, pointing at the parking lot below. The lot is fairly empty now, and all signs of the previous day’s battle have been cleaned up.

Allenby steps up beside me. “What do you see?”

“Someone in the parking lot.” There’s a shadow moving among the cars, but I can’t make out who it is. “Is that a bear?”

Allenby shrugs. “I don’t see a thing.”

I point. “It’s right there.”

“The lot is empty. I don’t—” There’s a slap and her voice cuts off.

I glance toward the sound and find my hand clutching her wrist. That’s unusual. But it’s not fear. It’s surprise. “What’s happening?”

“Look again,” she says. “Try to see more. When you feel it, push.”

When I look back to the window, my eyes feel strained. Like I need glasses. Something tickles my eye, and I fight the urge to blink. Following Allenby’s advice, I push forward. I can feel the stretch, like some newly formed muscle in my eye, and I will it to flex. And then, with a twitch, it does.

Blinding pain comes in waves, flowing from my eyes and down into my torso. My stomach clutches, pitching me forward with a grunt. My muscles spasm, the pain becoming systemic. “What’s happening?”

“It will get easier,” she says. “Look again, when you can.”

Fighting the pain, I turn my eyes up.

The parking lot is gone.

New Hampshire is gone.

The land is dark, mixed with veins of shimmering green light. The sky appears as a dark purple hue. There’s movement in the dark. Indistinct. Revealed by shifts in the green light. My vision flickers, pulsing pain throughout my body.

I see the parking lot.

And then it’s gone. Or not. It’s just dim. Less focused. And the veins of green remain.

I rub my eyes and the two views — the real and surreal — strobe back and forth. I close my eyes again. “I’m still hallucinating.”

“No,” Allenby says. “You’re not.”

“Then what am I seeing?”

“The world. But in a way no one else can.”

“There’s a shadow in the parking lot. Moving. But there’s no source. It isn’t connected to anyone.”

“Just the one?” Allenby asks, suddenly tense.

I scan the lot and see nothing else moving. “Yes.”

“That shadow,” she says, “is your enemy, our enemy, hidden from the world but present. Always present. They are the shifting air that makes hair stand on end. The monsters under the bed. The sense of impending doom, great depression, and panic that has no source. Most of us feel their presence — fear without tangible cause — on a regular basis. You, on the other hand, Mr. Fearless, have never felt them.”

The pain lessens and I open my eyes. The view is back to normal. Shifting movement turns my eyes back to the parking lot. The moment I see the strange shape skulking around the cars, the world goes black and green again, bringing a fresh wave of nausea-inducing agony along with it. “Dammit.” I turn away from the window. The apartment and Allenby look normal.

“How do I stop it?” I ask, clutching my gut with one hand, supporting my weight on the kitchen table with the other.

“Are you afraid?” Allenby asks. She sounds concerned, but I think she’s more worried that I’m feeling fear than she is about my physical state.

I rub my throbbing temples. “Is it supposed to hurt like this?”

“Try to focus,” she says. “See what you want to see. See where you want to see.”

“Have you done this before?” I ask.

“God, no.”

“Great,” I say, turning toward the dark window. “So your advice is—”

“Bullshit?” Allenby says. “Maybe. But it’s also you’re only hope, because once we step out of this building, you’re going to have to control it — and the pain — on your own.”

I turn back to the window and lift my head, tracking a fast-moving shadow as it sweeps by. A faint whispering tickles my ears but then fades. Allenby must see my surprise this time because she asks, “What?”

“The shadow.”

“Where?” Her voice is instantly tense. Almost a whisper.

Whatever this thing is, she’s definitely afraid of it. “It just passed by the window.”

Allenby takes a deep breath, lets it out slow. “How did it make you feel? When you saw it.”

I glance at her. “Are you asking me if I felt afraid?”

She nods.

“No.”

She pulls down the shade and collapses into one of the kitchen chairs. “Did it notice you?”

Focused on the kitchen and Allenby, the pain quickly subsides. “Notice me? I said it was a shadow.”

“Mmm.” She’s lost in thought. On another world.