End of an Era

My guide, an enthusiastic young Native Canadian named Dan Pitawanakwat, wanted to be sure I understood everything I saw, but most of it still went over my head. He showed me giant 30,000-kilogram magnets that looked like yellow Pac-Man characters, a room full of bright blue consoles with models of famous movie starships, including the Enterprise-F, Starplex, and the Millennium Falcon hanging by fishing line from the ceiling, and a Positron Emission Tomography scanner, used to take pictures of the insides of people’s brains. But the most interesting thing to me was the Batho Biomedical Facility, where cancer patients received concentrated beams of pions. According to Dan, this method caused less general damage than conventional radiation therapy. I watched, riveted, as a man lay under the pion beam for treatment of a brain tumor. His face was held steady by a transparent mask. The plastic obscured his features and my mind kept superimposing my father’s own craggy visage onto the head. It brought back the suffering and the torture and the loss of human dignity that Dad was going through. When they finally did remove the mask, I saw that the hairless head beneath belonged to a boy perhaps sixteen years old. I had to look away from the effusive Dan to wipe my eyes.

Later on, I said, "Dan, do they do any studies here about the nature of time?"

"Well, the thrust these days is always toward practical applications," he said. "That’s the only way we can get the grant money to keep coming in." But then he nodded. "However, we’ve typically got four hundred researchers here at once, so some of them are bound to be doing work in that area. But it was really Ching-Mei’s — Dr. Huang’s — forte. She even wrote a book on it with Dr. Mackenzie."

"Time Constraints: The Tau of Physics." I nodded knowingly and was pleased to see that the young man was impressed. "But that was ten years ago. What’s happened since?"

"Well, when I came here in 2005, everybody thought Ching-Mei was going to make some kind of breakthrough. I mean, there was talk of a trip to Stockholm, if you catch my drift." He winked.

"You mean her work was important enough to win her a Nobel Prize?"

"That’s what some people were saying. ‘Course, she probably would have shared it with Almi at the Weizmann Institute in Israel — he was doing similar work. But he was killed in that freak earthquake, and nobody there was able to pick up where he left off."

"That’s a shame."

"It’s a friggin’ crime is what it is. Almi was the new Einstein, as far as a lot of us were concerned. We may never recover what he knew."

"And what happened here? Why did Ching-Mei give up her research? Wasn’t it going anywhere?"

"Oh, it was going places, all right. There was a rumor that she was close to demonstrating a stopped-time condition. But, well, then she…"

"She what?"

"You’re a good friend of hers, aren’t you, sir?"

"I came all the way from Toronto just to see her."

"So you know about her troubles."

"Troubles?"

Dan looked uncomfortable, as if he’d put his foot in something distasteful. I held him in my gaze.

"Well," he said at last, "don’t tell anybody, because I’ll get into a lot of trouble if you do, but, well, something bad happened to Ching-Mei about five years ago." Dan looked over his shoulder to see if anybody was listening. "I mean, she never talked about it to me, but the gossip got around." He shook his head. "She was attacked, Dr. Thackeray. Raped. Absolutely brutalized. She was in the hospital for a week afterward, and away on — you know what they call it — on ‘rest leave’ for the better part of a year. They say he attacked her for three hours solid and, well, he used a knife. She was all torn up, you know, down there. She’s lucky to be alive." He paused for a long moment. "Except, she doesn’t really seem to think that."

I winced. "Where did it happen?"

"In her house." Dan sounded sad. "She’s never been the same since. Frankly, she doesn’t do much of anything anymore. Her job is mostly scheduling other people’s access to the cyclotron, instead of doing any original work of her own. They keep her on here, hoping that one day the old Ching-Mei will come back, but it’s been five years now." He shook his head again. "It’s tragic. Who knows what she would have come up with if that hadn’t happened?"

I shook my head, too, trying to clear the mental picture of that defenseless woman being violated. "Who knows, indeed?" I said at last.

I went to TRIUMF again first thing the next morning. This time, strangely, Dr. Huang did invite me into her little office. There were awards and diplomas on the walls, but none with recent dates. Books and papers were piled everywhere. As soon as I’d entered, we realized there was a problem: the office only had one chair in it.