It took a while for Tolstoy to acquire paternal feelings for Sergey. He refused to hold him when he was very small,61 and only began to love his son when he was nearly two years old and very unwell. It was ‘a completely new feeling,’ he noted in his diary in March 1865.62 Nevertheless, it was with the birth of Sergey that the happiest years of the Tolstoys’ marriage began. Lev and Sonya’s relationship became stronger and more stable, leading him to declare in his single diary entry for 1864 that he and Sonya meant more to each other than anyone else in the world.63 Sonya no longer had time to be bored or lonely, and as a mother she was now fulfilling her husband’s idea of womanhood, but she was doing more than that. By sitting up late at night to write out fair copies of her husband’s drafts, which gave her a sense of involvement in his creative life, she was also indispensable to his artistic productivity. This profound happiness in Tolstoy’s personal life was intimately connected to the extraordinary creative energy which was welling up inside him, and which would be expressed in the writing of
I’ve never felt my intellectual and even all my moral energies to be so free and so capable of work. And I’ve got work going on inside me now. This work is a novel about the period from 1810 to 1820 … I’m now a writer with
Two autumns later, in September 1865, Tolstoy noted in his diary that his happiness with Sonya was the sort of happiness enjoyed by one couple in a million.66
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