The Song of the Siren

“I think you should rest awhile,” he said.

He led the horse towards the house. Tomtit seemed to sense that he was a friend, for gruff as Granthorn was towards his own kind I had recognised in him that great bond between himself and the animals because I had it myself.

He tethered Tomtit to the post by the mounting block at the side of the house and lifted me down. I was surprised at his gentleness.

“I do not want to intrude,” I said. “You hate intruders.”

He did not answer but led me into the hall.

“Smith,” he shouted. “Smith.”

Smith came running.

“The lady is ill,” he said. “I’m taking her into the parlour. Help me.”

They were one on either side of me.

“Thanks,” I said, “but I feel better now ... I could go home.”

“Not yet,” said Jeremy Granthorn. “You must take something which will revive you.

I have a special wine.” He turned to Smith and whispered something. Smith nodded and disappeared.

I was seated in a chair in the small winter parlour, which I knew from the past.

It was one of the pleasantest rooms at Enderby and seemed to have escaped some of the general gloom.

I said: “I should have been all right, you know. My horse would have taken me home.

He does it when I’m tired.”

“You are often ... like that?” he asked.

“Now and then. But it’s all right. If I’m with Tomtit. He knows. He takes me home.”

“You should not be riding alone.”

“I prefer it,” I said.

Smith had come in with a tray and glasses. He poured out something from a bottle.

It was a rich ruby colour.

“A very special wine,” said Jeremy Granthorn. “I think you will like it. And I promise you it will revive you. It is noted for its beneficial qualities.”

Smith went out and left us together.

I sipped the wine. He was right. It was reviving.

“I have been very ill,” I told him. I explained the nature of my illness. “The doctors think I shall always be an invalid. It is only recently that I have taken to going out.”

He listened intently.

“It is depressing to be incapacitated. I am myself to a certain extent. I was wounded at Venloo. I shall never be able to walk properly again.”

I told him that I had been taken ill during a storm and had spent the night out of doors in a state of unconsciousness and that this had brought about a fever which had affected my limbs.

He listened attentively and suddenly I laughed, for it had occurred to me that this morbid subject had given us a certain interest in each other which nothing else could have done.

He asked why I laughed. And I replied that I was suddenly struck with the thought that it was rather funny that illness could be such an absorbing subject.

“Of course it is, to those who suffer it. It is their life.”

“There are other things in the lives of us all, surely?” I said.

I found that I could talk easily. Daemon came in and I was certain that he was pleased that I had become friendly with his master.

I asked how he managed here in this big house with one servant.

He replied that he did not use the whole house. Part of it was shut up.

The question trembled on my lips: Then why choose a house of this size? I did not ask it but he answered it all the same.

“There was something about this house which appealed to me.”

“Enderby appealed to you! We always thought it was a gloomy, miserable place.”

“I am gloomy and miserable-so it fitted my moods.”

“Oh,” I said suddenly, “please don’t say that.”

The wine or whatever it was was making me bold. I went on: “I have felt lost .. . listless. ... Do you know what I mean?”

He nodded.

“When I found I could not move my limbs without pain ... when I knew that I must spend the greater part of the day on a couch ... I just felt there was nothing left.

I was lying on a couch waiting for time to pass and that was all there was for me ... I still feel it often.”

“I know,” he said. “I know it well.”

“And then little things happen ... when Daemon nipped me ... it was funny in a way.

A little thing like that . .. it’s out of routine, I suppose ... and one starts being interested again.”

”I know,” he said, and there seemed to be a lifting of his voice.

He asked about the nip.

I held out my hand. “The stuff you put on it must have been very good. It healed very quickly.”

“It was stuff I had in the army.”

I wanted to know about him but I never asked questions. I always waited for him to tell. I think he appreciated that.

I was rapidly feeling better and when I rose to go he did not try to detain me, but he did insist on riding back to the Dower House with me.

I said he should meet my parents but he said no, he would go straight back.

I did not press him but I felt better than I had for a long time, and although I was too tired to ride the next day, I could lie on my couch and remember the details of our meeting.

It was the beginning of a friendship. I never called. I would ride by and he would often be walking and we would meet as if by accident. Then I would go in and sit with him and drink a glass of wine. He was knowledgeable about wines and produced several for me to try.