The Shadow Catcher

In her confusion Clara thought he had meant heaven. She’d thought for one awful moment that he meant Edward was dead.

“Mt. Rainier,” he pointed again, and behind him, over his shoulder, Clara saw the mountain for the first time, majestic and snowcapped, dominating the distance.

“He’s—?” she stammered.

“—on the mountain,” he confirmed.

“But—why?”

He’d laughed again, warm and welcoming, like his eyes. “Well, when he comes down, ask him yourself.”

The fact that the elder Curtis, the head of the household, had contrived not to be present for their arrival did not bode well, she’d thought. What if they weren’t welcome? What if Ellen, off her head, had forgotten to inform him?

“Edward goes away,” Asahel said, by way of explanation. “Then he comes back. You’ll see. Edward always comes back. He always does. Edward always comes back home.”

Clara might have dozed, sitting up, or else the densely forested countryside looked the same mile after mile because she seemed to lose track of time. Even the choppy ferry ride couldn’t invigorate her sense of dread and fatigue, and she was grateful to Asahel for taking charge of Hercules as she stood, gripping the rail of the boat, searching the trailing fog, as previous sailors must have done, for symptoms of a recognizable life.

And then they were there. Although what “there” was was hardly recognizable. Asahel drew the horse to a halt and helped his mother and sister from the back and began to unload the buckboard as Hercules ran toward the barn and Clara sat, unable to move, staring at what was before her.

Surrounded by green-black fir trees on three sides, this was a clearing, of sorts, a cleared rectangle in the middle of a pine tree forest, the narrow dirt road leading into a cul-de-sac with the house, if you could call it that, to the right side, the barn to the left and a sheer drop of land straight ahead where, between the pine trees, she could see the Puget Sound and hear it lapping on the shore, below. The earth in the foreground, between the barn and the house, was tamped bare and muddy and paved in places with crushed oyster shells. There was a timber rack next to the barn on which some kind of flesh was curing in rows and an overpowering aroma led her to conclude it must be fish. There was a garden, badly kept, between the house and the coastal promontory, staked for vines but overrun with chickens. There was a hand pump in the center of the bare ground between the house and barn, beside a water trough where a tomcat sat licking at its testicles, and beside the porch steps to the house, wrapped in blankets the same color as the fog, there stood two Indians.

Ellen was already shooing at them, “Go away. No make-ee business today. Edward no here. Go, go—” while Asahel helped Clara down from the buckboard, meeting her expression of alarm with the explanation, “Friends of Edward’s. He finds work for them.” Then Hercules came running from the barn, exclaiming, “Clara! They have horses here!” and Clara was trying to calm his excitement as they went up the porch steps past the Indians into what she supposed was meant to be a kitchen.

The floor was some kind of uneven stone, there was a hearth, a stove, a copper basin, hanging pots and brooms, a long pine table with two benches, shelves lined with mismatched plates and tin enamelware, and two glass-fronted highboys painted pink and yellow. “Come, Amelia, come,” Ellen beckoned and led Clara from the kitchen toward a narrow passageway that led to other rooms. Clara followed her into the first room on the left, larger than expected, nearly the size of the kitchen, with a glazed tile stove in one corner and a matrimonial-size bed in the center of the floor. “You take this room, Amelia,” Ellen said, gathering up what few personal belongings there were from the bureau and the hat rack. “I’ll move in with Eva.”

“—no, mother, no,” Eva urged, appearing in the room, taking Ellen by the arms to stop her and entreating Clara with her eyes. “—please,” she whimpered.

“Oh, no, we’ll be fine. I never liked it in here, not after that first night. Amelia needs this larger room for all of her nice things.”

Eva turned to Clara. “Tell her you are not Amelia,” she begged, her eyes blazing, and although Clara understood her despair at having to share her privacy, at her age, with her dotty mother, a purely selfish impulse rose within her. She could see herself living in a room this size, alone, filling it with her own thoughts and memories, making of it a refuge from this strange place and this strange family, and, involuntarily, her gaze flitted to the door to see if there was a lock on the inside. There was. “Aunt Ellen,” she said, only halfheartedly, “you must let Eva have a room of her own. And you must stop calling me Amelia.”

“Well, what should I call you, dear?”

“Clara.”

“Don’t be silly, dear.” She continued gathering her pile of things. “Eva, tell your brother to bring Amelia’s trunk in here.”