The Miracle at St. Bruno's

"The only thing that could make me happier would be to see my father walk into this garden alive and well, happy and secure from… traitors.”

"We are none of us secure from traitors, Damask. We have to remember that we live on the very edge of a volcano which can erupt and destroy us at any moment. If we are wise we take what we can get and do our best to enjoy it while we can.”

"I see you put your policy into action. You are enjoying what you have taken.”

"Most willingly would I have shared it with you.”

He moved closer to me and I drew away with some alarm.

"Foolish Damask," he said. "I would have made you mistress of this place.”

"It was what my father intended - that I should in due course come into my own.”

"He would have wished to see you mistress of it, yes. You have been foolish. And one day you will see how foolish. I shall be a very rich man one day, Damask.”

"Do you see your way clear to acquiring more lands?”

He pretended not to see the significance of the question.

He went on as though talking to himself. "The Abbey is going to ruin. It cannot always be so. Imagine what could be done there. The lands are rich. They will not lie idle forever. It will be bestowed on someone who will cultivate it, possibly build a fine mansion. There are enough bricks there to build a castle.”

"Caseman Castle!" I mocked. "It sounds even grander than Caseman Court.”

"You have ideas, Damask. Caseman Castle!”

"And you have ambitions. Not content with a court you must have a castle as well.”

"There is no end to my ambitions, Damask.”

"But they are not always realized-even in your case.”

His eyes smoldered as they looked into mine.

"That can only be decided at the very end," he said.

I was afraid of him in that moment. I thought: I must get away. It is unsafe here. I will marry Rupert. It is the only way.

Marry for security, for safety, for a hope of forgetting? I was as mercenary as Kate.

"You gained this house through some service in an influential quarter," I said. "You are doubtless looking around to find means of doing a similar service, the reward of which would be the Abbey and all its lands.”

He looked at me, laughing; but I knew I had put into words the ideas fermenting in his head.

I stood up. "You are a very ambitious man," I said.

"Ambitious men frequently get what they set their hearts on.”

"No one can ever achieve the impossible," I retorted over my shoulder as I hurried away.

That night I had a great desire to see my father's grave. I waited until the household was sleeping, then I crept quietly out of the house. The moon was shining brightly and how beautiful the country looked-vague, mysterious in that cool pale light.

I slipped through the ivy-covered door into the grounds. I sped across the grass and paused for a while to look at the gray walls of the Abbey. Suddenly I was startled by the hoot of an owl; I looked up at the roof-half open now to the sky-and I thought of this historic Abbey's falling into Simon Caseman's hands.

I went along to the burial ground and wending my way among the tombstones, I knelt by the grave in which lay my father's head. The rosemary was flourishing. I took a little sprig of it and slipped it into my gown.

"As if I needed rosemary to remember you, dear Father," I murmured. And I went on: "Give me courage to live without you. Show me what I must do.”

I looked about me almost expecting to see him materialize beside me, so sure was I that he was close.

It was hard to go on living in the house which now belonged to a man whom some instinct forced me to mistrust, and Kate would have delighted to have me with her. But she would try to find a husband for me, I was sure, and I did not wish for that. If I had wanted a husband I would marry Rupert of whom I was fond and whom I trusted.

Then my thoughts went to Bruno as they constantly did, and I wondered afresh whether that confession of Keziah's had been wrung from her and that she had dared not deny it. I thought of her tied to the bed and that evil roan bending over her. Had she screamed words which he put into her mouth? And had the monk supported her story because torture impelled him to? How could one be sure what was truth when people were threatened with unendurable agony until they confessed what their tormentors asked of them?

How many men at this moment were being racked in that grim gray fortress along the river? How many were suffering the torture of the thumbscrews, the rack and the scavenger's daughter, that dread machine of which I had heard, shaped like a woman and covered with iron spikes which as a man was squeezed into an embrace, penetrated his body, puncturing heart and lungs.

The times were cruel. Simon Caseman was right in one way. We should enjoy what we could while we could.

I fancied that it was my father's spirit which comforted me. And I rose from my knees and left the burial ground filled with that peace and lack of fear which always astonished me on these occasions.