The Catswold Portal

The little girl had vanished from the garden when she and Alice were visiting Alice’s aunt here, the child had been playing alone by the tool shed. Alice had searched frantically, gone to all the neighbors and into the village, and after several hours to the police, beginning the search that lasted long after Aunt Carrie died, that lasted until Alice was killed.

When he and Alice started dating, she had been so preoccupied over the child’s disappearance that she seemed, often, hardly to see him. She would be white, shaken with the things she thought might have happened to the little girl.

The wind rose, soughing through the garden and through the tops of the redwoods that thrust black against the night sky. Above the trees against the stars, pale clouds blew. He rose and went into the dark studio and did not switch on the lights.

His new paintings covered the walls, in the darkness they were only black squares. They oppressed him, he did not want to look at them, he felt constricted by them and by his commitment to finish the series.

The date for his show at Chapman’s was too close and he wasn’t ready, the work wasn’t ready. His lack of passion for the work, and his lack of professionalism in letting himself go like this, had no excuse. He told himself he’d lost the desire and thus the skill, that he wouldn’t paint anything worthwhile again. He knew that was stupid. He wasn’t some twenty-year-old who didn’t know how to handle hard times. But he couldn’t shake the depression, and the work reflected his barrenness—stilted and dry.

He turned away from the paintings restlessly and went back outside. Without conscious thought he crossed the brick veranda and headed up the dark garden toward the door of the cats.

The carved oak door was lit faintly by the scattered house lights at the outer boundaries of the garden. In the wind under the blowing trees the cats’ faces seemed to move and change expression. They chilled him. As he stood looking, annoyed with himself for coming up here, he began to imagine space beyond the door. Unending hollowness. Deep spaces yawning down inside the hill. He imagined he could hear echoing sounds above the wind and voices whispering from deep beyond the door. And then he shook his head, and turned away, and went back to the terrace for a drink.

Chapter 2

Perhaps the universe tilted for an instant to allow Braden his perception of the dark, cavernous spaces. Surely some change in the natural forces permitted him to glimpse the tunnel plunging down, the teetering slabs of stone thrusting down into the hollow bowels of the earth. Though he didn’t, for a moment, believe in such things. It was the next morning that, deep within the earth, an old woman stood saddling her horse.

Where the black caverns dropped at last to gentle meadows and cliffs and to wandering paths, dawn was coming, its green light seeping down from the stone sky—light laid down eons past by wizards long since turned to dust. The green light drifted like fog, turning the cliffs to emerald and embracing a stone cottage perched on the rim of the steep valley.

The old woman took her time saddling the horse and tying on her baskets full of woven cloth for trading. She was roundly built, with a face as wrinkled as an ancient apple. The bay gelding she was saddling stood obediently tethered by her spell, his ears back in resentment. On the other side of the corral a pony snuffled at the hay manger. Behind them the valley dropped away, and across the ravine rose a line of cliffs jagged as dragons’ teeth. As Mag tightened the girth and mounted, she glanced toward the cottage window and raised her hand to the girl.

From the open window Sarah waved back, and watched Mag force the gelding through the orchard and down along the ridge that lipped the valley.

She was seventeen, slim, and taller than Mag. There was a deceptive softness about her, like velvet over lean muscle. The corners of her wide mouth turned up as if with some secret pleasure. Her green eyes were wide, her lashes thick and black. She had long hands, clever at weaving. Her long brown dress was the typical valley coarsespun. As she watched the old woman and horse disappear down the cliff, intently she watched the pony, too, for he did not like being left behind. He was a big, sturdy pony of elven breed. When he raised his head and charged the fence suddenly, meaning to jump it, she lifted her hand in a sign that jerked him back. He turned away, his ears flat, his tail switching.