Don was on his feet now. "This is bullshit," he said. "Your people said they knew what they were doing."
Petra flinched, but then seemed to find some strength. She had a slight accent to his ears; Georgia, maybe. "Look," she said, "I’m a doctor; I’m not in PR. We
Sarah was looking down at her hands — her swollen-jointed, liver-spotted, translucent-skinned hands, folded in her lap. "I’m going to stay old." It was a statement, not a question.
Petra closed her eyes. "I am
Sarah looked at Don, and she squinted, as if trying to make out someone far, far away. He walked over to her and stood next to where she was seated, placing a hand on her bony shoulder. "You must have some idea what caused this," he said sharply to Petra.
"As I said, we’re still working on that, but…"
"What? "he said.
"Well, it’s just that you had breast cancer, Mrs. Halifax…"
Sarah narrowed her eyes. "Yes. So? It was a long time ago."
"When we went over your medical history, prior to commencing our procedures, you told us how it was treated. Some chemotherapy. Radiation. Drugs. A mastectomy."
"Yes."
"Well, one of our people thinks that it might have something to do with that. Not with the successful treatment, which you told us about. But he wanted to know if there were any
"Good grief," said Sarah. "I don’t remember all the details. It was over forty years ago, and I’ve tried to put the whole thing out of my mind."
"Of course," said Petra, gently. "Maybe we should speak to the doctors involved."
"Our GP from back then is long dead," Don said. "And the oncologist treating Sarah was in her sixties. She must be gone by now, too."
Petra nodded. "I don’t suppose your old doctors transferred records to your new doctor?"
"Christ, how should we know?" said Don. "When we changed doctors we filled out medical histories, and I’m sure we authorized the handing over of files, but…"
Petra nodded again. "But this was in the era of paper medical records, wasn’t it?
Who knows what’s become of them after all these years? Still, the researcher at our facility looking into this uncovered that about that time — early 2000s, right? — there were some interferon-based cancer treatments here in Canada that weren’t ever approved by the FDA in the States; that’s why we didn’t really know about them.
They’re long off the market; better drugs came along by 2010. But we’re trying to find a supply of them somewhere, so that we can run some tests. He thinks that if you had such a treatment, it might be what’s caused our process to fail, possibly because it permanently eliminated some crucial commensal viruses."
"Jesus, you should have screened more carefully," Don said. "We could sue you."
Petra rallied a bit and looked up at him defiantly. "Sue us for what? A medical procedure that you didn’t pay for that had no adverse effect?"
"Don, please," said Sarah. "I don’t want to sue anyone. I don’t…"
She trailed off, but he knew what she’d been about to say: "I don’t want to waste what little time I have left on a lawsuit." He stroked her shoulder reassuringly. "All right," he said. "All right. But can’t we try again? Maybe another round of treatments? Another attempt at rolling back?"
"We
But nothing is working."
He felt bile climbing his throat. God damn — God damn
"This is ridiculous," said Don, shaking his head back and forth. He lifted his hand from Sarah’s shoulder, and then clasped both his hands behind his back and started pacing the length of the narrow living room, the room that had been home to him and his wife, the room his children had first learned to crawl in, the room that held so much history, so many memories — memories that he and Sarah had shared, decade after decade, good times and bad, thick and thin.
He took a deep breath, let it out. "I want you to stop the process for me, then," he said, his back briefly to the two women.
"Dear, no," said Sarah. "Don’t do that."
He turned around and started pacing toward them. "It’s the only thing that makes sense. I never wanted this in the first place, and I sure as hell don’t want it if you’re not getting it, too."