Journeys into the bright world

Marcia. It's not just a third eye; its a pyramid, which makes it vision raised into a whole new dimension.

Howard. You know, with this feeling I have right now, it's home again. You could say "home again."

Marcia. Good. Just go with it.

Howard. Home again. All this is part of the research of Dr. Neptune. Isn't that a beautiful name. Dr. Neptune. Wow…well this is obviously a nice high. I don't have that waxy feeling.

Marcia. Good.

Howard. I'm very relaxed. I've definitely gotten out of my body. It's magnificent, magnificent to get out of your body. God, this is really a nice trip. (Laughing.) I love you, Marcia. I'll always love you…the turning of the spiral. We'll always be together. That's mine, my original…what's the word for when you say something and it gives out a vibration…onomatopoeia.

Marcia. I know what you mean, you can see the sound. Its like Sanskrit mantras are supposed to be. The words are inherently efficacious. (Stumbling over the effort to express the idea.) Anyway, I know what you mean, but the words are…are like

wax. Howard. Souls…wow. There's no question this is an altered state of consciousness.

Marcia. Yes, and you only had a mere twelve and a half. You wouldn't consider that enough to change anything.

Howard. Look at that, Marcia. I can't talk either. I'm so glad we bought that screen. Its glowing. It's alive. (This was a large carved wooden Indian screen which we had recently purchased as a room divider.)

Marcia. I oiled it so carefully. It turned out three shades darker.

Howard. I know, you did a lovely job.

Marcia. But the thing is, so much thought went into it. Imagine if you had to make a screen like that.

Howard. The bright world. I always want to be in the bright world. It's a beautiful world. Together, together.

Marcia. Together forever.

Howard. Together forever. (Repeating).

Marcia. That was like a garland you were weaving.

Howard. That's beautiful as I say it. Look at that candle. And just get into those vibes. They're gold and violet. You can see the sound waves. You can see the energy waves of what I was saying. (Repeating.) Together forever.

Marcia. That's what I get. It's a wave you see. A wave or a spiral.

Howard. Souls, a soul trip. This is definitely a soul trip. Wow. All I see is purple and gold. Gosh, purple and gold. What a beautiful experience. Twelve and a half. Wow, wow…You know it's beautiful on this level of consciousness. The people look different. The wax is constantly reshaping itself. There are times when all of us are beautiful or ugly… On this one little plane of consciousness you always appear to me like a little child scrunched up and saying, "Tee hee hee, I'm really having fun." Like a little mouse. "Why don't you have fun with me?"

Marcia. (Laughing.) That's cute.

Howard. It's very mousy.

Marcia. That's Mini-mouse. You saw her. She titters, tee hee hee.

Howard. (Laughing.) Exactly. I saw little Mini-mouse.

Marcia. We should look at auras. Even under this I don't see the aura. Look at your hand against the screen. Do you see any emanations?

Howard. Oh, I can definitely see gold around them. I see yellow.

Marcia. I do see some.

Howard. I see gold. That's just because we have the candle, isn't it.

Marcia. No, I don't think so. If you look in another direction you still see it. This is a good way to do your aura gazing.

Howard. You're looking at my aura. What color is it?

Marcia. I can't tell. I only see the gold. But it's nice. What about mine?

Howard. Well I can see that it's silver; it's blue; it's violet…it's a glow.

Marcia. Good. So now you can see auras. That means you're clairvoyant.

Howard. But I can't see them all the time.

Marcia. You could if you wanted to. It would be handy for a doctor to see auras, wouldn't it? Howard. Oh, for sure. (We continue experimenting with the candle gazing, this time trying to see the auras through the third eye. Moderate success.)

While the low dosages were extremely helpful as a means of integrating our inner and outer worlds they did not take us to the higher archetypal levels where the more meaningful spiritual insights are obtained. It would have been lovely to have remained on our twenty five milligram plateau grooving on candles, music and each other. Now, however, it seemed as though the time had come to move back to the fifty milligram peaks of perception.

Session 12

December 18, 1977   5:43 pm   Alderwood Manor   50 mg