Invisible man

            "Nothing, a word that doesn't explain it. Why do you moan?"

            "I moan this way 'cause he's dead," she said.

            "Then tell me, who is that laughing upstairs?"

            "Them's my sons. They glad."

            "Yes, I can understand that too," I said.

            "I laughs too, but I moans too. He promised to set us free but he never could bring hisself to do it. Still I loved him . . ."

            "Loved him? You mean . . ."

            "Oh yes, but 1 loved something else even more."

            "What more?"

            "Freedom."

            "Freedom," I said. "Maybe freedom lies in hating."

            "Naw, son, it's in loving. I loved him and give him the poison and he withered away like a frost-bit apple. Them boys woulda tore him to pieces with they homemake knives."

            "A mistake was made somewhere," I said, "I'm confused." And I wished to say other things, but the laughter upstairs became too loud and moan-like for me and I tried to break out of it, but I couldn't. Just as I was leaving I felt an urgent desire to ask her what freedom was and went back. She sat with her head in her hands, moaning softly; her leather-brown face was filled with sadness.

            "Old woman, what is this freedom you love so well?" I asked around a corner of my mind.

            She looked surprised, then thoughtful, then baffled. "I done forgot, son. It's all mixed up. First I think it's one thing, then I think it's another. It gits my head to spinning. I guess now it ain't nothing but knowing how to say what I got up in my head. But it's a hard job, son. Too much is done happen to me in too short a time. Hit's like I have a fever. Ever' time I starts to walk my head gits to swirling and I falls down. Or if it ain't that, it's the boys; they gits to laughing and wants to kill up the white folks. They's bitter, that's what they is . . ."

            "But what about freedom?"

            "Leave me 'lone, boy; my head aches!"

            I left her, feeling dizzy myself. I didn't get far.

            Suddenly one of the sons, a big fellow six feet tall, appeared out of nowhere and struck me with his fist.

            "What's the matter, man?" I cried.

            "You made Ma cry!"

            "But how?" I said, dodging a blow.

            "Askin' her them questions, that's how. Git outa here and stay, and next time you got questions like that, ask yourself!"