Changing Planes

He was thirty-two. I asked him if he was married, and he told me that fliers never married; they considered it, he said, beneath them. “Affairs on the wing,” he said, with a slight smile. I asked if the affairs were always with other fliers, and he said, “Oh, yes, of course,” unintentionally revealing his surprise or disgust at the idea of making love to a nonflier. His manners were pleasant and civil, he was most obliging, but he could not quite hide his sense of being apart from, different from the wingless, having nothing really to do with them. How could he help but look down on us?

I pressed him a little about this feeling of superiority, and he tried to explain. “When I said it was as if I was my wings, you know?—that’s it. Being able to fly makes other things seem uninteresting. What people do seems so trivial. Flying is complete. It’s enough. I don’t know if you can understand. It’s one’s whole body, one’s whole self, up in the whole sky. On a clear day, in the sunlight, with everything lying down there below, far away… Or in a high wind, in a storm—out over the sea, that’s where I like best to fly. Over the sea in stormy weather. When the fishing boats run for land, and you have it all to yourself, the sky full of rain and lightning, and the clouds under your wings. Once offEmer Cape I danced with the waterspouts… It takes everything to fly. Everything you are, everything you have. And so if you go down, you go down whole. And over the sea, if you go down, that’s it, who’s to know, who cares? I don’t want to be buried in the ground.” The idea made him shiver a little. I could see the shudder in his long, heavy, bronze-and-black wing feathers.

I asked if the affairs on the wing sometimes resulted in children, and he said with indifference that of course they did. I pressed him a little about it, and he said that a baby was a great bother to a flying mother, so that as soon as it was weaned it was usually left “on the ground,” as he put it, to be brought up by relatives. Sometimes the winged mother got so attached to the childjthat she grounded herself to look after it. He told me this with some disdain.

The children of fliers are no more likely to grow wings than other children. The phenomenon has no genetic factor but is a developmental pathology shared by all Gyr, which appears in less than one out of a thousand.

I think Ardiadia would not accept the word pathology.

I talked also with a nonflying winged Gyr, who let me record our conversation but asked that I not use his name. He is a member of a respectable law firm in a small city in Central Gy.

He said, “I never flew, no. I was twenty when I got sick. I’d thought I was past the age, safe. It was a terrible blow. My parents had already spent a good deal of money, made sacrifices to get me into college. I was doing well in college. I liked learning. I had an intellect. To lose a year was bad enough. I wasn’t going to let this business eat up my whole life. To me the wings are simply excrescences. Growths. Impediments to walking, dancing, sitting in a civilised manner on a normal chair, wearing decent clothing. I refused to let something like that get in the way of my education, my life. Fliers are stupid, their brains go all to feathers. I wasn’t going to trade in my mind for a chance to flitter about over rooftops. I’m more interested in what goes on under the roofs. I don’t care for scenery. I prefer people. And I wanted a normal life. I wanted to marry, to have children. My father was a kind man; he died when I was sixteen, and I’d always thought that if I could be as good to my children as he was to us, it would be a way of thanking him, of honoring his memory… I was fortunate enough to meet a beautiful woman who refused to let my handicap frighten her. In fact she won’t let me call it that. She insists that all this”—he indicated his wings with a slight gesture of his head—“was what she first saw in me. Claims that when we first met, she thought I was quite a boring, stuffy young fellow, till I turned around.”

His head feathers were black with a blue crest. His wings, though flattened, bound, and belted down, as nonfliers’ wings always are, to keep them out of the way and as unnoticeable as possible, were splendidly feathered in patterns of dark blue and peacock blue with black bars and edges.

“At any rate, I was determined to keep my feet on the ground, in every sense. If I’d ever had any youthful notions about flitting off for a while, which I really never did, once I was through with the fever and delirium and had made peace with the whole painful, wasteful process—if I had ever thought of flying, once I was married, once we had a child, nothing, nothing could induce me to yearn for even a taste of that life, to consider it even for a moment. The utter irresponsibility of it, the arrogance—the arrogance of it is very distasteful to me.”