Trigger Warning

I ate my fill. She had no appetite. I believe that Calum was still hungry when his meal was done. He poured whisky for the three of us: she took but a little, and that with water. The rain rattled on the roof of the house, and dripped in the corner, and, unwelcoming though it was, I was glad that I was inside.

It was then that a man came through the door. He said nothing, only stared at us, untrusting, angry. He pulled off his cape of sheepskin, and his hat, and he dropped them on the earth floor. They dripped and puddled. The silence was oppressive.

Calum MacInnes said, ‘Your wife gave us hospitality, when we found her. Hard enough she was in the finding.’

‘We asked for hospitality,’ I said. ‘As we ask it of you.’

The man said nothing, only grunted.

In the high lands, people spend words as if they were golden coins. But the custom is strong there: strangers who ask for hospitality must be granted it, though you have blood-feud against them and their clan or kin.

The woman – little more than a girl she was, while her husband’s beard was grey and white, so I wondered if she was his daughter for a moment, but no: there was but one bed, scarcely big enough for two – went outside, into the sheep-pen that adjoined the house, and returned with oatcakes and a dried ham she must have hidden there, which she sliced thin, and placed on a wooden trencher before the man.

Calum poured the man whisky, and said, ‘We seek the Misty Isle. Do you know if it is there?’

The man looked at us. The winds are bitter in the high lands, and they would whip the words from a man’s lips. He pursed his mouth, then he said, ‘Aye. I saw it from the peak this morning. It’s there. I cannot say if it will be there tomorrow.’

We slept on the hard-earth floor of that cottage. The fire went out, and there was no warmth from the hearth. The man and his woman slept in their bed, behind the curtain. He had his way with her, beneath the sheepskin that covered that bed, and before he did that, he beat her for feeding us and for letting us in. I heard them, and could not stop hearing them, and sleep was hard in the finding that night.

I have slept in the homes of the poor, and I have slept in palaces, and I have slept beneath the stars, and would have told you before that night that all places were one to me. But I woke before first light, convinced we had to be gone from that place, but not knowing why, and I woke Calum by putting a finger to his lips, and silently we left that croft on the mountainside without saying our farewells, and I have never been more pleased to be gone from anywhere.

We were a mile from that place when I said, ‘The island. You asked if it would be there. Surely, an island is there, or it is not there.’

Calum hesitated. He seemed to be weighing his words, and then he said, ‘The Misty Isle is not as other places. And the mist that surrounds it is not like other mists.’

We walked down a path worn by hundreds of years of sheep and deer and few enough men.

He said, ‘They also call it the Winged Isle. Some say it is because the island, if seen from above, would look like butterfly wings. And I do not know the truth of it.’ Then, ‘And what is truth? said jesting Pilate.’

It is harder coming down than it is going up.

I thought about it. ‘Sometimes I think that truth is a place. In my mind, it is like a city: there can be a hundred roads, a thousand paths, that will all take you, eventually, to the same place. It does not matter where you come from. If you walk towards the truth, you will reach it, whatever path you take.’

Calum MacInnes looked down at me and said nothing. Then, ‘You are wrong. The truth is a cave in the black mountains. There is one way there, and one only, and that way is treacherous and hard, and if you choose the wrong path you will die alone, on the mountainside.’

We crested the ridge, and we looked down to the coast. I could see villages below, beside the water. And I could see high black mountains before me, on the other side of the sea, coming out of the mist.

Calum said, ‘There’s your cave. In those mountains.’

The bones of the earth, I thought, seeing them. And then I became uncomfortable, thinking of bones, and to distract myself, I said, ‘And how many times is it you have been there?’

‘Only once.’ He hesitated. ‘I searched for it all my sixteenth year, for I had heard the legends, and I believed if I sought I should find. I was seventeen when I reached it, and brought back all the gold coins I could carry.’

‘And were you not frightened of the curse?’

‘When I was young, I was afraid of nothing.’

‘What did you do with your gold?’

‘A portion I buried and I alone know where. The rest I used as bride-price for the woman I loved, and to build a fine house.’

He stopped as if he had already said too much.