“You should really try the jam,” Kabsal said to Shallan. “Strawberry is hard to find. I had to make quite a number of inquiries.”
“No doubt bribing merchants with the king’s money,” Jasnah noted.
Kabsal sighed. “Brightness Jasnah, I realize that you are not fond of me. But I’m working very hard to be pleasant. Could you at least
Jasnah eyed Shallan, probably recalling Kabsal’s guess that undermining Vorinism was the goal of her research. She didn’t apologize, but also made no retort.
“The jam, Shallan,” Kabsal said, handing her a slice of bread for it.
“Oh, right.” She removed the lid of the jar, holding it between her knees and using her freehand.
“You missed your ship out, I assume,” Kabsal said.
“Yes.”
“What’s this?” Jasnah asked.
Shallan cringed. “I was planning to leave, Brightness. I’m sorry. I should have told you.”
Jasnah settled back. “I suppose it was to be expected, all things considered.”
“The jam?” Kabsal prodded again.
Shallan frowned. He was particularly insistent about that jam. She raised the jar and sniffed at it, then pulled back. “It smells terrible! This is jam?” It smelled like vinegar and slime.
“What?” Kabsal said, alarmed. He took the jar, sniffing at it, then pulled away, looking nauseated.
“It appears you got a bad jar,” Jasnah said. “That’s not how it’s supposed to smell?”
“Not at all,” Kabsal said. He hesitated, then stuck his finger into the jam anyway, shoving a large glob into his mouth.
“Kabsal!” Shallan said. “That’s revolting!”
He coughed, but forced it down. “Not so bad, really. You should try it.”
“Really,” he said, forcing it toward her. “I mean, I wanted this to be special, for you. And it turned out so horribly.”
“I’m
He hesitated, as if considering forcing it upon her. Why was he acting so strangely? He raised a hand to his head, stood up, and stumbled away from the bed.
Then he began to rush from the room. He made it only halfway before crashing to the floor, his body sliding a little way across the spotless stone.
“Kabsal!” Shallan said, leaping out of the bed, hurrying to his side, wearing only the white robe. He was shaking. And… and…
And so was she. The room was spinning. Suddenly she felt very, very tired. She tried to stand, but slipped, dizzy. She barely felt herself hit the floor.
Someone was kneeling above her, cursing.
Jasnah. Her voice was distant. “She’s been poisoned. I need a garnet. Bring me a garnet!”
Her mind was so fuzzy.
“Shallan,” Jasnah’s voice said, anxious, very soft. “I’m going to have to Soulcast your blood to purify it. It will be dangerous.
“Hush, child. Where is that garnet!”
“You can’t Soulcast,” Shallan said weakly, pulling the ties of her pouch open. She upended it, vaguely seeing a fuzzy golden object slip out onto the floor, alongside the garnet that Kabsal had given her.
Stormfather! Why was the room spinning so much?
Jasnah gasped. Distantly.
Fading…
Something happened. A flash of warmth burned through Shallan, something
All went black.
The Shallan’s Notes
49
To Care