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Another example: I remember pointing to a heavy table in a stroke clinic and asking a patient whose left arm was paralyzed, “Can you lift that table with your right hand?”
“Yes.”
“How high can you lift it?”
“By about an inch.”
“Can you lift the table with your left hand?”
“Yes, by two inches.”
Clearly “someone” in there knew she was paralyzed for, if not, why would she exaggerate the arm’s ability?
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For example, most patients recover from anosognosia after having been in denial for a few days. I had been seeing one such patient who insisted for nine days in a row that his paralyzed arm was “working fine,” even with repeated questioning. Then on the tenth day he recovered completely from his denial.
When I questioned him about his condition, he immediately stated, “My left arm is paralyzed.”
“How long has it been paralyzed?” I asked, surprised.
He replied, “Why, for the last several days that you have been seeing me.”
“What did you tell me when I asked about your arm yesterday?”
“I told you it was paralyzed, of course.”
Clearly he was “repressing” his denials!
Anosognosia is a striking illustration of what I have repeatedly stressed in this book—that “belief” is not a single thing. It has many layers that can be peeled away one at a time until the “true” self becomes nothing more than an airy abstraction. As the philosopher Daniel Dennett once said, the self is more akin conceptually to the “center of gravity” of a complicated object, its many vectors intersecting at a single imaginary point.
Thus anosognosia, far from being just another odd syndrome, gives us fresh insights into the human mind. Each time I see a patient with this disorder, I feel like I am looking at human nature through a magnifying glass. I can’t help thinking that if Freud had known about anosognosia, he would have taken great delight in studying it. He might ask, for example, what determines which particular defense you use; why use rationalization in some cases and outright denial for others? Does it depend entirely on the particular circumstances or on the patient’s personality? Would Charlie always use rationalization and Joe use denial?
Apart from explaining Freudian psychology in evolutionary terms, my model may also be relevant to bipolar disorder (manic-depressive illness). There is an analogy between the coping styles of the left and right hemispheres—manic or delusional for the left, anxious devil’s advocate for the right—and the mood swings of bipolar illness. If so, is it possible that such mood swings may actually result from alternation between the hemispheres? As my former teachers Dr. K. C. Nambiar and Jack Pettigrew have shown, even in normal individuals there may be some spontaneous “flipping” between the hemispheres and their corresponding cognitive styles. An extreme exaggeration of this oscillation may be regarded as “dysfunctional” or “bipolar illness” by psychiatrists even though I have known some patients who are willing to tolerate the bouts of depression in order to (for example) continue their brief euphoric communions with God.
OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE: DOCTOR, I LEFT MY BODY BEHIND