The Taming of the Queen

‘Almost as if they are the same thing!’ she confesses. ‘I get so much pleasure from embroidery and from poetry. I think there should be beauty in the words of the church and in the church paintings, so the little prie-dieu in my room should be beautiful too, with a golden crucifix and a crystal monstrance. But then I think I am sliding towards vanity. Really, I cannot deny it. I have my books bound with fine leather and jewels, and I collect illuminated manuscripts and prayer books. Why not, if it is for the glory of God and the delight of our eyes?’

I laugh. ‘I know! I know! And I’m afraid that my love of study is the sin of pride. I find it quite thrilling to understand things, as if reading were a journey of discovery. I long to know more and more, and now I want to make translations and even compose prayers.’

‘Why should you not?’ she demands. ‘If you take pride in reading the Word of God, that is surely a little sin? It’s more a virtue of study than a pride of scholarship.’

‘It’s a joy I never thought I would have.’

‘If you are a reader, you are already halfway to being a writer,’ she says. ‘For you have a love of words and pleasure from seeing them on a page. And if you are a writer, then you will find that you are driven to write. It is a gift that demands to be shared. You cannot be a silent singer. You are not an anchorite, a solitary saint, you are a preacher.’

‘Even though I am a woman and a wife?’

‘Even though.’

I am to meet my stepson, the Prince of Wales, Queen Jane’s son. He comes in state from his own palace at Ashridge, where he lives at a safe distance from the plagues and illnesses of the city. I watch from the windows that overlook the river and the gardens, and see the royal barge approaching, the banks of oars cutting into the water and then lifting out, and pulling onwards again. I see the barge feather the oars to slow its stately progress and then steer smoothly to the pier. The oarsmen throw the ropes and moor up as the guns roar out to salute him. The richly carved gangplank is run ashore, and the men make a guard of honour with their green and white oars erect. Half of the court is already on the riverbank to greet the prince. I see Edward Seymour’s dark head and Anthony Denny beside him, Thomas Howard trying to get in front. They look almost as if they are jostling to be first to greet him. These are the men who will want him to favour them, whose power will come only from him, whose futures depend on him. If my husband dies and this boy becomes a child-king, then one of them will be his governor, his protector. It may fall to me to defend him from them all, to raise him as his father would have it done, and keep him in the ways of the true religion.

I turn to my ladies and let them adjust my hood, settle my jewels at my neck, and pull out the hem of my gown. I am wearing a new gown in deep red, the king’s huge ruby ring cut down to fit my finger, Queen Anne’s rubies sitting heavily and coldly on my neck. With my ladies behind me and with Rig, my spaniel, trotting beside me in his red leather collar with silver rings, we walk to the king’s presence chamber, through a whispering crowd of people who have come to witness this meeting.

His Majesty is there already, seated beneath the golden cloth of estate, his leg supported on a footstool. His face is dark with bad temper. I guess that he is in pain and I curtsey before him and take my place at his side without speaking. I have learned that it is better to be silent when he is ill; the least word angers him. He cannot hear a reference to his weakness, but he cannot bear that his suffering should be ignored. It is impossible to say the right thing, impossible to say anything at all. I feel nothing but pity for him, fighting the decay and collapse of his body with such dauntless courage. Anyone else in pain like this would be wild with temper.

‘Good,’ is all he says as I sit beside him, and I see that however sour his mood, he is not displeased with me.

I turn my head to smile at him in silence and we exchange a little gleam of mutual understanding.

‘Did you watch from the window?’ he asks. ‘Were the jackals gathering around the young lion?’

I nod. ‘They were. So I came to the great lion,’ I say. ‘I cleave to the greatest lion there is.’

Henry gives a little grunt of amusement. ‘The old lion still has his teeth and claws. You will see I can draw blood. You will see I can rip a throat.’