The Oracles of Troy (The Adventures of Odysseus)

His voice had such power and authority that Philoctetes was compelled to retain his pinch-hold on the arrow and lower his bow a little. He looked down the shaft at the man he had spent ten years hating – hating him still, but powerless for an instant to bring about his destruction.

‘Philoctetes, I do not deny your right to kill me,’ Odysseus began. ‘Indeed, what man who had suffered as you have suffered would not want to kill the one he blamed for his misfortunes. If you send my spirit down to Hades then I would not begrudge you your vengeance, even though your haste will have deprived Penelope of a husband and Telemachus a father. You, after all, are the victim, the man who through no fault of his own was betrayed and abandoned to die on this forbidding rock.’

He swept his hand in a half-circle, looking up at the churning walls of mist and the dark mass of the cliff faces beyond them.

‘In truth, I’m amazed you were able to survive this long in such a place. There are few, even among the greatest warriors of Greece, who could have kept themselves alive amid this desolation.’

‘Philoctetes had the bow Heracles left him,’ Philoctetes said. ‘And his hatred of you, of course.’

Odysseus nodded as if in sympathy, though his eyes did not leave Philoctetes for one moment.

‘Of course. Hatred is a powerful force among mortals. It gives a man endurance in adversity, a purpose to go on living when there is nothing else to live for. In battle it focusses his strength and gives him an urgency that is difficult for his enemies to overcome. But hate does not nourish a man, Philoctetes, nor is it something he can master. I know a warrior who, for twenty years, has been crippled by his loathing of his own father. If he could leave his hatred behind there would be few men to match him in this age of the world, but it distracts him and holds him back, preventing him from becoming what the gods meant him to be.’

Eperitus felt a flush of anger that Odysseus should dare draw parallels between himself and the wretched figure standing among the rocks above them. His father was a black-hearted murderer who had killed a king and taken his throne for himself, and when Eperitus had refused to support his vile crime or acknowledge his rule he had exiled him from the kingdom for life. Shortly afterwards he had fallen in with Odysseus and followed the new path the gods had laid before him; but he had never forgiven his father’s sin or forgotten his desire to kill him and wash clean the stain from his family’s name. Indeed, a man of honour could do no less, and Odysseus’s comments were a stinging betrayal. Eperitus stared at the back of his head, willing him to turn so he could challenge his accusation, but the king kept his gaze stubbornly fixed on the Malian archer whose arrow was still pointed at his heart.

‘No doubt the man you speak of had his choice,’ Philoctetes said. ‘And yet what choice did Philoctetes have? His hatred of you was the only difference between life and death. He chose life.’

‘Wrong, Philoctetes. You chose death. The Philoctetes who led his fleet out from the Euboean Straits and beat Achilles in the race to Tenedos is dead. His hatred murdered him and left you, a living wraith, a mere husk of humanity!’

‘No!’ Philoctetes shouted, raising his bow and drawing the string taut. ‘No! Philoctetes is alive, and when you’re dead he’ll be free again.’

‘Kill me and any vestige of Philoctetes that remains in you will die with me,’ Odysseus retorted. ‘Just listen to your babbling speech. Ever since you emerged from that cave you’ve referred to yourself as he and him, never I or me. Whatever you are, you aren’t Philoctetes. But perhaps you’re right that he isn’t completely dead yet. Perhaps something of the old Philoctetes, the true Philoctetes, is left inside you. And to him I’m as vital as that crutch you lean on. The thought of me has kept him alive all these years, and though you hate me, without me he would disappear forever. Kill me and Philoctetes will truly die. Only you will be left!’

As Philoctetes stared back down at Odysseus, it was clear the king’s words had provoked a shift deep within his consciousness; a realisation that without the object of his hatred he would succumb fully to the wild, insane creature that lurked among the rocks of Lemnos, reeling between pain and hunger while it eked out an existence on the flesh of seagulls. If he killed Odysseus, the precious Philoctetes – the proud, handsome archer whose memory he guarded like cherished treasure – would be lost forever. While Eperitus watched, a sharp jolt of pain brought Philoctetes crashing down onto the rocks with a cry. His thin voice, stripped bare of any humanity, rose up into the fog-filled air and screamed to the gods for mercy. His screams broke the trance Odysseus’s voice had thrown over the others and both Diomedes and Antiphus raced towards the foot of the cascade of boulders to help him. Odysseus called them back.