The only right way

After that dream, my life began to turn black. My family began to collapse, my wife left with my child for no reason. It was as if she was possessed by an evil spirit. Otherwise, I can't explain what she did. And all of this happened at a time when I was in high-risk loans and working around the clock. I was doing 100 percent of what I could do for a better life. At that moment, everything was cut off from me again for I was trying to live according to righteous statutes. I did not expect this, especially since I had not committed any serious sins. I turned the switch in my head for a while, and with a great burden on my soul, I threw myself into all kinds of sins. That's my weakness, I gave up in times of trouble, which is something you should never do. It seemed to me that I was no longer worthy of faith and the Lord's attention. As time passed, things began to get better, but sin cannot be erased-it is there.

I can tell you one thing from my experience. Never despair of the Lord's mercy. Always expect the best from Him. Sincerely recognize your mistake, repent from your heart, and start with a clean slate. When you have drifted away from God, when it seems that there is no way back — stop, remember death, remember, and realize the moment of the end in this world: yours and all the people dear to you. This will make you turn to the right path, for which it is never too late, even if you are a great sinner. Better late than never. It is never too late, even in the hour of death, for sincere repentance to God and recognition of your sins to save your soul.

This is where my weakness, my human imperfection, was revealed. If we all feared the Creator like death, like an incurable disease, there would be no trouble and no misfortune on earth, for "Everything is in the hands of Allah." This is the name of the Lord God, according to the Holy Qur'an. And yet God is infinitely more terrible in His wrath. According to the Holy Scriptures, if there is no doubt in our faith, we will have trials absolutely according to our strength or none at all. And if a person is not faithful enough to God, he will certainly be tested beyond his ability. But the one who really wants to reform himself after such a test, having concluded that his faith and righteousness are insufficient, will start a new path, more righteous, more pure. One should never give up the way of being faithful to God. In trouble as well as in joy, one should give thanks to the Lord. This is what worthy people do, even when it seems that all is lost and you are a complete sinner.

There is a theory that the Earth is a prison for souls. After all, life on earth is difficult for people. From this point of view, if life after the grave is better, one should try even harder to reform oneself in this prison by fulfilling the commandments of the Scriptures. If it is even worse there than it is here, one might think that it is too cruel for such a weak creature as man, and then the Creator is cruelty itself. But if that were true, there would be nothing good in this world. But how much good and joy there is in this world, how much happiness and positivity, suggests otherwise. On the contrary, the Creator is goodness and love. And if it is hard out there, it is only for those who deserve it.

Sometimes reality hits you in the head with a deceptive realization of the true gravity of the present moment. When life is very hard, when misfortune strikes in such extreme moments, the brain takes everything literally. A person begins to think, "Here it is, reality, everything has already happened, what to do, who will help, nothing is getting better, it is getting worse, there is no light for improvement, there is no strength, you are about to give up. There's no way to fix it. It's a dead end, there's no way out.

These are the most responsible moments, the most difficult, and at the same time the most favorable, in which you should not give up your spirit. Do not disappoint God with all your strength, show how devoted you are to Him and how much you believe in Him without seeing Him. Keep the commandments during these times and do not doubt your expectations or your faith. The reward will come soon. Everything will be recompensed a hundredfold to the righteous. It is difficult, but have confidence in the result as in your reflection in the mirror. It is not for nothing that there is a saying on earth: "When difficulties increase and multiply, then victory is near." The Holy Books say that patience is one of the most important qualities of a righteous person. The Qur'an says: "Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease. So when you have finished [your duties], then stand up [for worship]. And to your Lord direct [your] longing."

It is also important to realize that no matter how hard this life is, eternal happiness in Paradise is infinite and worth a thousand hard lives, but the Lord tests us with one.