Once in his protective embrace she dissolved into tears. He tightened his arms around her as she wept softly.
Alex glanced down the hall at the shoppers going about their day. Most didn’t notice Jax and Alex. Those who did thought that they were simply a couple hugging in a nook—not all that uncommon in a mall. The passersby were polite enough not to stare.
“Jax, listen to me,” he said in a quiet but firm tone. “The people you’re fighting are coming here because they need something. We’re not going to let them get what they need. We’ll stop them, then the people in your world will have a chance.”
“You don’t know these people, Alex,” she said as she wept. “I couldn’t begin to describe their brutality. If we don’t find out what they’re after, then the people in my world will lose everything. I’m only one person with no power here.”
He ran a hand down the back of her head. “Jax, we’ll stop them. That’s why you came here. That’s why you found me. We’ll stop them. I’m not going to give up or let you face it alone. I’ll help you. We’ll stop them.”
“But I feel so alone, so homesick. . . . And I can’t ever get home.”
“I know,” he whispered as he held her.
Her fingers finally tightened on his jacket, gathering it into her fists. “I’m sorry,” she said through tears, “forgive me.”
“You don’t have anything to be sorry for.”
“Yes, I do. So many people are counting on me. So many people need me to be strong. Sometimes, though, I’m afraid that I’m not strong enough for them. I’m terrified that I’ll fail them.”
Alex smiled despite how much it hurt his heart to see her miserable. “Jax, if I had to pick one word to describe you, it would never be ‘weak.’ ” He rubbed her back as she quieted a little. “We’ll figure it out. We’ll stop them. Whatever they came here to do, we’ll stop them. I promise.”
She nodded against his chest, content to be there for the moment, content to be in the shelter of his arms, relieved for the moment not to have to face a world that was alien to her.
Something about the way she clung to him told him that she wasn’t used to ever getting that kind of protective comfort, of ever having the shoulder of a friend, or anyone who would simply put an arm around her.
Something told him that she also wasn’t used to ever showing weakness of any sort. He couldn’t imagine the strength it took to be in an alien world, to know that you couldn’t get home, and be able to remain as composed as she usually was. Alex didn’t know how long he would be able to maintain his cool under that kind of stress.
“Thank you, Alex, for being strong, for reminding me to be strong.”
“That’s what friends are for—to be strong for you when you need a moment to find your own strength.”
“I guess I never had a real friend before.”
“You haven’t?” When she shook her head against him, he said, “Well, you have one now. Sometimes, one is all you really need.”
“Tell you what,” he said after a time. “How about if I take you to meet your future mother-in-law.”
That made her laugh. It was a good sound, as beautiful as everything else about her.
“All right,” she said, sniffling. “Let’s go meet Mom.”
27.
IT WAS EARLY AFTERNOON when they arrived at Mother of Roses in the older section of Orden. As was his custom, Alex found a parking place on a hill and at the end of a block so that if he had to he could let the car roll to get it started. The spot was only a few blocks from the hospital.
He cocked the wheels against the curb, set the brake, and then turned to Jax. “We can’t take weapons into this place.”
“They won’t see my knife.”
“They don’t have to see it. They have technology that detects metal. The machine will set off an alarm if we have any weapons on us.”
Jax sighed. “We have ways of detecting weapons, too.”
“I have to leave my gun here. You have to leave your knife.”
“Knives,” she said.
“How many do you have on you?”
“Three.”
“Well, you have to leave them all here.”
She didn’t appear to like the idea one bit. “Without my knives I can’t defend us as well.”
“I understand, but we have to go through the detector in order to be allowed in to see my mother. If we set off an alarm they won’t let us go in, period. Worse, if they find the kind of knife on you that I saw the last time, then we’re going to have problems we don’t need.”
When she hesitated he asked, “Do you want to wait here? I can go alone and see if my mother can tell me anything. You could wait here until I—”
“No,” she said emphatically. “Your grandfather’s place is gone, you don’t go to that gallery anymore, and you’ve left your house. Not being able to find you at places they know—the patterns of your life abruptly changing—may spook them into changing their plans. You come here regularly. They could be watching the place to find out where you are. I have to be there to protect you.”
“All right, but since we have to go unarmed let’s try to make it as quick as possible. If my mother is out of it, then there’s no need to stay anyway; she won’t answer anything when she’s in that state.