The Lake

The breeze whispering through the open window felt good. Lifting her nightgown over her head, she let it drop to the floor—changed her mind, picked it up, wadded it, and tossed it in the hamper.

She looked down at her body, pale and slick with sweat. Her full, firm breasts, flat belly, and long, muscular legs.

Gleaming in the darkness.

No full moon tonight.

Not like the night Nelson paid me a visit.

Nelson. Fucking maniac.

If it weren’t for him, Allan’d still be here…

She opened the nightstand drawer, pulled out Allan’s gym shorts, and buried her nose in them.

She took a deep, deep sniff.

And couldn’t believe it.

Allan’s smell was gone.

So soon.

How could a person’s smell disappear like that? It was like it had died with him.

Bit by bit, piece by piece, Allan was going away.

Leaving her behind.

This is how it’s gonna be. I’ll forget what he looks like next. Except I have that photograph of him I took at Stinson Beach a couple of weeks back.

The one where he looked like a young Robert Redford. Tousled blond hair, broad smile, gorgeous teeth, eyes crinkled up against the sun.

He was wearing those tight, shiny swim trunks…

Oh God, Allan. I’ll never forget you. Never. I promise!

Knowing that Allan was gone forever hit her hard.

Again.

Tears stood in her eyes, then coursed down her cheeks. She wiped them away with the shorts.

She sighed, fighting back a sob. Gently, she folded the shorts and replaced them in the nightstand drawer.

Allan’s smell may have disappeared, but she would always have his shorts to remind her of the good times they’d had.

Could still be having—if it weren’t for that sick fuck Nelson.

Loud, hurting sobs broke through, bursting from her throat.

She threw herself on the bed and lay weeping into her pillow, drawing up her knees till they touched her chin. She rocked and sobbed, her tears drenching the pillow, hopelessness sweeping over her like a tidal wave.

Allan was gone.

Forever.

I’ll never forget you, darling…

The tears gradually subsided. She felt calmer now and turned over on her back.

Staring at the ceiling.

Watching the shadows from her tree spread across it like giant fingers.

If I could find Nelson, I’d kill him. That’s what I’d do. If I saw him tonight and killed him, nobody would know.

I could slit his goddamn throat. Stab him to death. Then hide the body.

Roll it away into someone’s garden.

Or into the stand of redwoods, back of the house.

Nobody’d ever think of looking there.

She leaned over Nelson’s body, blood streaming from the wound in his gut, pouring from his mouth. Sobbing and choking at the same time, he pleaded with her to stop, get help.

He hadn’t meant to do it.

Oh no?

He was sorry—he hadn’t wanted to kill anyone…

She laughed at him scornfully, kicked the knife into the bushes, and strolled back into the house.

She sat back on the bed, planning her next move.

Knife. That’s what I need, a knife.

Her mind flew to the kitchen.

Mom’s vegetable knife.

It was lethal. Short, strong, with a pointed blade. You could lose a finger and not even notice.

I could handle it, though.

Deana pictured Mom holding the knife.

Chopping carrots.

Quickly, expertly, like a machine, the root falling away from the knife like small orange counters.

Yes, Mom’s vegetable knife could kill Nelson okay.

No problem.

Deana swung herself off the bed, shivering with excitement. The idea of killing Nelson was scary, but it was turning her on.

It would be so easy.

And she’d get away with it.

Nobody’d suspect her.

If they did, well, she was a girl, wasn’t she—still distraught at the death of her lover.

They’d say she didn’t know what she was doing.

Maybe they’d think a young girl like her wouldn’t have the courage, the strength to kill a grown man…

Nelson won’t be hanging around, though, waiting to be killed.

Not if he has any sense.

Or would he?

Maybe he has got this fatal attraction for Mom and me.

Maybe he won’t be able to stay away.

She crept to the door.

Listening out for Mom.

Seems like she’s already in bed. Having cleared away the supper things, got into her nightgown, cleaned her teeth…

Probably went to sleep thinking of Mace.

Yuck.

The silence was everywhere, except for the rustling tree outside her window.

Reminding her of Nelson, the way he’d scared the daylights out of her…

I’ll scare the butt-ugly bastard shitless. If and when I find him.