He went through the front door this time. Inside, the house was dark, like a cave. It took his eyes a moment to adjust, and when they finally did, he saw that the interior had changed. Not only had the furnishings been moved and swapped, but the location of the rooms themselves was different. He should have been in the entryway, facing the living room and the hall. Instead, he was looking into his office. Through a doorway in the opposite wall, he could see the kitchen.
He stepped into the room. It was a mess. Books and papers, records and CDs had been strewn all over the floor. The walls were smeared with wide streaks of brown that he hoped to God were chocolate. On his desk, amid a small mound of rubble, his computer was on. The monitor glowed white in the dimness, and there appeared to be words written on it, though when he drew closer, he saw that it was merely a random collection of letters. Nonsense.
Or maybe not. There seemed to be a kind of pattern in the arrangement of the vowels and consonants, and it occurred to him that maybe it was another language, the true language of the being that lived here.
Julian looked up, startled. Had the word actually been spoken, or had he heard it only in his head? Either way, it had accompanied a rush of wind that blew out from the fireplace, which for some reason was now in his office across from his desk, rather than in the living room. Squinting into the gloom, he tried to see what was in the fireplace, which seemed to stretch back far beyond the width of the house, though that was only an impression, as the darkness within the square opening was complete.
Another rush of air blew out from the fireplace, only this one he could see. It was not smoke, exactly, though it had a billowing quality that reminded him of smoke. Rather, it resembled an arm or a tentacle, one of the liquid, flowing protuberances of an amoeba, perhaps. It had no color of its own but matched precisely the hue and shading of its surroundings, its lower portion the same color as the floor, its upper half corresponding precisely to the appearance of the wall, down to those unexplainable brown streaks.
It was the same formless entity that had assaulted him in the living room before he had moved out, the same evil creature that had tried to get him to kill himself. It didn’t look like a fat man’s shadow anymore, and he had the feeling that this was closer to its true appearance. Although maybe not. He remembered from the cold touch of that shadowy arm that this being was constantly evolving, was always in the process of becoming, that it took on the properties of its latest acquisition. Maybe it had changed since the other day. Maybe this was what it looked like now.
Was Claire’s dad part of it?
“Roger?” he said tentatively.
There was no answer, no change. The breeze kept blowing, and the billowing, liquidy tentacle kept moving forward, causing Julian to back up until he was against the wall and had no place left to go.
He smelled the familiar odor of mold and dirt, and then the creature touched him.
Julian understood now why the entity had revealed itself to him, why it had given him a glimpse into its makeup. It had been trying to lure him, letting him know that if he killed himself and joined with it, he would become top dog, offering him power as an incentive.
Of course, once again, his first instinct was to say no, but …
But he paused, pulling himself away from that cold touch and moving around to the side of the desk. It could have held on to him, could have maintained contact, but it knew the direction in which his thoughts had been heading and gave him space, let him think.
His mind was racing. It was a kamikaze solution that had just occurred to him, a flash of either brilliance or insanity, but he thought that if he could be the one driving the bus, if he could take control of this thing, he could kill it. He could make
He was going to die today no matter what.
He was going to die.