The changeling

“Oh yes.” She looked at me. My grandmother nodded. I knew what that meant. Mrs. Polhenny had something to say which was not for my ears.

I left the room but I did not go away. This was my mother and I intended to know what was happening for Mrs. Polhenny’s look had alarmed me. So, though I went outside, I left the door a little ajar and stood there listening.

“She seems exhausted, Mrs. Hanson.”

“She’s just had a long train journey from London.”

“H’m,” said Mrs. Polhenny. “Ought to have come earlier. I’d like her to take a good rest.”

“She’ll have that here. There’s nothing wrong, is there, Mrs. Polhenny?”

“No ... no ...” She spoke rather hesitantly. Then she went on: “I think we are a week or more farther on than we thought.”

“Oh, do you?”

“I think so. Anyway, she’s here now. I’m glad she didn’t leave it any longer to travel. We’ll take good care of her, never fear. She’s in the right hands now. With the good Lord’s help we’ll see she’s all right.”

“Oh yes, Mrs. Polhenny, of course.”

As soon as Mrs. Polhenny had gone I sought out my grandmother.

“She’s all right, isn’t she?” I asked.

“Oh yes. Mrs. Polhenny wants her to rest more. Naturally she’s rather tired after the journey. She’s going to be all right now she’s here.”

“I thought Mrs. Polhenny sounded rather worried.”

“No ... not really. She wants to think we can’t do without her. That’s just her way.”

We laughed together; then we went up to my mother.

“The holy Mrs. Polhenny thinks you should rest more,” said my grandmother. My mother lay back on the pillows and laughed. “I’m willing,” she said. “I feel so tired.”

My grandmother went over and kissed her.

“I’m so happy you came home,” she said.

We were all seated at the dining table. My mother, considerably refreshed in a long rose-colored teagown, looked beautiful. Miss Brown was having something in her room. Meals were always a little difficult. My grandparents did not like her to eat alone and she certainly could not join the servants in the kitchen. It was different at Manorleigh or in the house in London. There Miss Brown and I often ate together, but here there was a more intimate family life. Miss Brown would often plead work to prepare and would eat in her room. I think she preferred it sometimes. In any case she did on that night.

So it was just my grandparents, my mother and myself.

“I daresay Jack and Marian will be over to see you tomorrow,” my grandmother was saying. “They are so pleased you are here. Marian will be a great help ... such a practical girl. And then, of course, there’s Mrs. Polhenny ... she’ll be over.” She looked at me. “A pity Pedrek’s not here. Poor boy! School has put an end to his frequent visits. He’s growing up fast.”

“Tell us what has been happening here,” said my mother.

“Oh, nothing much. Life goes on in the same old way in remote places, you know.”

“Well, you did have the French refugees here. Are they still at High Tor?”

“No. They bought the place though. They probably wish they hadn’t now. They’ve got another place near Chislehurst. They pride themselves on their aristocratic connections.”

“Oh yes,” said my mother. “The Emperor and Empress went there, didn’t they?”

“Yes. Exiles. I believe they have a fine house there. When the Emperor died, the Bourdons thought they ought to go and comfort the Empress. I’ve not doubt she keeps a little court there.”

“I heard of his death,” said my mother. “In January ... I think.”

My grandmother nodded.

“And what about Mrs. Polhenny’s daughter?” I asked.

“Oh, Leah is staying with an aunt now. St Ives way, I think.”

“An aunt! Who’s that? Mrs. Polhenny’s sister?”

“I should think so.”

“I didn’t know she had any relations,” I said. “I thought she just descended from Heaven to lead the unrighteous back to the fold.”

We all laughed and my grandfather said: “I must say it seems strange to think of her as a child with a sister ... and growing up like an ordinary little girl.”

“It may be that she was quite normal then,” said my mother, “and suddenly she was made aware of her mission ... like St Paul on the road to Damascus.”

“I am sure Mrs. Polhenny would appreciate the comparison,” put in my grandmother.

“Did Leah do the tapestries at High Tor?” I asked.

“Yes. She was there for some weeks ... well, all of a month, I believe. It changed her. I saw her once or twice. She looked so well ... and happy. Poor girl, it must have been wonderful to get away from her mother.”

“Why do good people so often make others uncomfortable?” I asked. “I doubt whether they are as good as they think they are,” replied my grandmother, “and the rest of us are not as bad as they think we are.”

“The thing is not to let such people bother you,” added my grandfather.

“It’s not easy if you happen to be the daughter of one,” retorted my mother and added:

“Poor Leah!”

“Well, I’m glad she enjoyed her spell at High Tor,” I said. “And now she’s gone to this aunt. It looks as though she has developed a taste for adventure.”