The Catswold Portal

All images were forbidden in Affandar and in most of the Netherworld. Everyone knew that an evil soul would cast destructive images and bring disaster.

But all souls were not evil. She didn’t think she was evil; she didn’t understand why all images should be avoided. And no one ever talked about what she had found in Mag’s spell book, that images made with love were beneficial and that such images could heal. In Affandar there was no distinction between good images and evil; all images were forbidden by order of the queen.

There would be no mirrors in Affandar Palace. Or none that she would see. She had heard that the queen kept one small mirror for dressing, locked within her wardrobe where no eyes but her own would see it, and no spell could be cast upon her.

For a long time she knelt beside the spring looking down at her own reflection. Mag would have been furious, but Mag wasn’t there. She liked her green eyes and dark lashes, and she felt happy to like what she saw.

Toward noon she came up out of the labyrinth onto rolling green pastures. The sky dropped close above her, radiating warmth. She could see ahead the village of Sesut. There was a rebel camp there. She had gone there with Mag, and she had learned to swim in the icy Sesut River with the daughters of a rebel leader. Now, she stayed behind a ridge, regretting the warm welcome she would miss and the good hot meal.

Soon she turned onto an animal trail through a woods, then followed a spring until it ended in a thin fall of water dropping into a ravine. Beyond the ravine she entered country she hadn’t seen and knew only from hearing the rebels describe it. She knew she was passing caches of weapons and food hidden in scattered caves. Ahead the land was unstable, and she stepped lightly among shattered stone thinking of boulders imploding, of faulted, cracked caverns collapsing in landslide. Families, whole villages had died, buried in such implosions.

She came out of the faulted land at dusk to a place of firestones. As she knelt to pick up the darkest, oiliest rocks with which to cook her supper, pebbles fell from above her and a small blue dragon slid out of a cleft. It was the size of a pony, too small to be dangerous, but it snapped its forked tongue at her. She was startled by her sudden desire to kill it, an inexplicable need to leap on it and tear at it. A desire so intense she caught herself moving stealthily, stalking it. Only when she was very close did she freeze and draw back, alarmed, not knowing what was wrong with her.

She had killed game, had hunted doves for Mag when meat was scarce, bringing them down with a simple spell. Even that killing had upset her unbearably. She had never liked cleaning the birds; they hung too limply in her hands. She didn’t want to admit that she had been unpleasantly stirred by the dead birds, that they awoke a horrifying desire to eat raw meat. She was deeply ashamed of such bizarre feelings.

And now, this night, sleeping beside her fire in a cleft of stone, she dreamed of killing dragons and of shaking and teasing dragons, and she woke sick with shock at herself.

Around her the first green of dawn was seeping from the stone sky and cliffs. She drank some water, and set out walking fast, trying to escape her dream. She didn’t feel like eating. When at mid-morning two winged lizards soared over her, she started guiltily for no reason. The lizards’ thin shadows slid along the roof of sky, but their ruby eyes looked down directly into her eyes. Well, so she was journeying to Affandar Palace. If they told the queen that, what difference?

Toward evening she crossed pastureland again, approaching a herder’s cottage. She could see by the bales of reddish wool in the shed that he kept long-coated russet sheep. She thought he was likely on the high ridges where the russets preferred to graze. Entering the cottage, she found cold mutton packed in peat and ice, and some bread and onions and dried peaches. She took a small amount of food as was the custom, leaving an opal from among the dangles on her bracelet. Some said it wasn’t right to trade for food since the queen gave the common folk much of the food they needed. Mag said pay for what you get. Mag wanted nothing from the queen.

Queen Siddonie had gained her throne by marrying Affandar’s child prince when he was twelve. She had come originally from Xendenton. She had been a little girl when Xendenton fell and her father and two brothers were killed. She and the one remaining brother had escaped the battle and were not seen again in the Netherworld for many years. When they returned, they quickly rallied an army to win back their kingdom. Siddonie herself killed its ruler, and she put her brother Ithilel on the throne.