She didn’t, and
“We’ll put the word out. Ask for help,” she said. “We’ve gotta try.”
Johnny Red looked at her for a long moment, then nodded once, slow.
“All right,” Mike Blondin said. “We’ll try not to shoot.”
“Thank you,” Cora said, and went back to washing dishes.
Johnny Red came into the kitchen a few minutes later. He bellied up to the sink beside her and dipped his arms in to the sleeve line. “You thinking something?”
“Yeah,” she said. “A bit.”
He didn’t say anything. He didn’t have to.
“You trust me?” she said anyways.
He rinsed a plate. Set it in the rack. “Yeah.”
She nodded. “Okay.” Behind them was the hum of worried voices; the clink of cutlery both in the sink and outside. Her elbow brushed his as they passed plates and bowls from the battered aluminum sink to the draining board. Water splashed and rustled, and outside, the wind.
Behind it all a sound, faint and creaking, like the chopping of a whitebark pine.
Cora slid her hands out of the water, dusted them gently on the front of her apron. “Going for a smoke,” she said to Johnny Red, and walked slow and straight down the little hall past the kitchen that led to the storeroom door.
“She didn’t have any left. Wait—” she heard behind her, but she didn’t turn around.
When she passed the kitchen counter, she picked up a drying wedge of pomegranate and tucked it into her pocket.
She felt it right away in her kneecaps, her thighs: cramp and twist. The burn of cold so hard it wrapped your body like heat.
Storm coming.
She closed the storeroom door behind her cautiously, sharp for any unfamiliar sound. The wind scuttled ’round the corners, wearing the heart out of the buildings inch by creeping inch. She stumbled into her milk crates, swore, and righted the top one before it fell. Plastic scraped plastic, terrifically loud. She let it go with shaking hands.
“Aidan,” she said soft. Shifted her weight to her good leg, trying not to feel the burn. “C’mon, I know you’re back here.”
Something rustled behind the old stacked-up chairs. Silence.
“I can hear your heart,” she whispered.
The blow blacked out her vision for two long, falling seconds, and then he was on top of her.
Aidan was sobbing. He wept like an animal, his hips pinning hers, his hands groping for her flailing wrists to hold them down. She tried to push with her leg, but her leg wouldn’t work; the hurt turned to paralysis, muscles shutting down, giving up, playing dead. The back of her head felt bitter, bitter cold, and then it was nothing but pain; he must have hit her with something. He slammed her left wrist to the floor, and she gasped. It had only been his bare hands after all.
She screamed, and it was tiny; his chest was on hers too, pushing the air out, sinking the chill of every January night she’d ever known down through her ribcage, her bones. She couldn’t scream. She couldn’t get enough air.
“Why did you say that?” he said, and it took a second before she could make out the words through his shuddering, terrified tears. “Why’d you say it?”
“Say what?” she gasped, and his teeth glinted in the thin light. Man’s teeth, not a predator’s: dull and blunt and slow. It wouldn’t be quick or clean, this. It would hurt like five thousand years of Hell.
“Why’d you say you’d take care of me!” he burst, and his hands were moving wildfire, moving without will; they spread her own hand out, palm up, on the floor. The specks cleared from her vision, and his eyes were black, all pupil, black as a raven’s wing. “Nobody can take care of
His voice failed. The hands grew steadier, firmer, and she hadn’t realized that they were shaking until they weren’t; that the look on his face had been the same that Jane Hooker’d worn when she talked about Gertie cut down. Broken in two, like a little child.
And now it was fading into something monstrous. Something not a person anymore.
“Aidan, stay—” she managed, and the smell of wind, the winter-mask that used to be a person’s face faltered.
“What?” he whispered, pupils shrinking abrupt and small.