“Yes, that was different — I don’t
As they moved across the dining room to the inner door, for the first time Sandrine noticed a curtain the color of a dark camel hair coat hanging up at the top of the room’s oval. Until that moment, she had taken it for a wall too small and oddly shaped to be covered with bookshelves. The curtain shifted a bit, she thought: a tiny ripple occurred in the fabric, as if it had been breathed upon.
For a moment, she was disturbed by a vision of the yacht honeycombed with narrow passages and runways down which beetled small red-brown figures with matted black hair and faces like dull, heavy masks. Now and then the little figures paused to peer through chinks in the walls. It made her feel violated, a little, but at the same time immensely proud of the body that the unseen and silent attendants were privileged to gaze at. The thought of these mysterious little people watching what Ballard did to that body, and she to his, caused a thrill of deep feeling to course upward through her body.
“Stop daydreaming, Sandrine, and get over here.” Ballard held the door that led to the gray landing and the metal staircase.
“You go first,” she said, and Ballard moved through the frame while still holding the door. As soon as she was through, he stepped around her to grasp the gray metal rail and begin moving down the stairs.
“What makes you so sure the galley’s downstairs?”
“Galleys are always downstairs.”
“And why do you want to go there, again?”
“One: because they ordered us not to. Two: because I’m curious about what goes on in that kitchen. And three: I also want to get a look at the wine cellar. How can they keep giving us these amazing wines? Remember what we drank with lunch?”
“Some stupid red. It tasted good, though.”
“That stupid red was a ’55 Chateau Petrus. Two years older than you.”
Ballard led her down perhaps another dozen steps, arrived at a landing, and saw one more long staircase leading down to yet another landing.
“How far down can this galley be?” she asked.
“Good question.”
“This boat has a bottom, after all.”
“It has a hull, yes.”
“Shouldn’t we actually have gone past it by now? The bottom of the boat?”
“You’d think so. Okay, maybe this is it.”
The final stair ended at a gray landing that opened out into a narrow gray corridor leading to what appeared to be a large, empty room. Ballard looked down into the big space, and experienced a violent reluctance, a mental and physical refusal, to go down there and look further into the room: it was prohibited by an actual taboo. That room was not for him, it was none of his business, period. Chilled, he turned from the corridor and at last saw what was directly before him. What had appeared to be a high gray wall was divided in the middle and bore two brass panels at roughly chest height. The wall was a doorway.
“What do you want to do?” Sandrine asked.
Ballard placed a hand on one of the panels and pushed. The door swung open, revealing a white tile floor, metal racks filled with cast-iron pans, steel bowls, and other cooking implements. The light was a low, diffused dimness. Against the side wall, three sinks of varying sizes bulged downward beneath their faucets. He could see the inner edge of a long, shiny metal counter. Far back, a yellow propane tank clung to a range with six burners, two ovens, and a big griddle. A faint mewing, a tiny
“Look, is there any chance…?” Sandrine whispered.
In a normal voice, Ballard said “No. They’re not in here right now, whoever they are. I don’t think they are, anyhow.”
“So does that mean we’re supposed to go inside?”
“How would I know?” He looked over his shoulder at her. “Maybe we’re not
“You first,” she said.
Without opening the door any wider, Ballard slipped into the kitchen. Before he was all the way in, he reached back and grasped Sandrine’s wrist.
“Come along now.”
“You don’t have to drag me, I was right behind you. You bully.”
“I’m not a bully, I just don’t want to be in here by myself.”
“All bullies are cowards, too.”
She edged in behind him and glanced quickly from side to side. “I didn’t think you could have a kitchen like this on a yacht.”
“You can’t,” he said. “Look at that gas range. It must weigh a thousand pounds.”
She yanked her wrist out of his hand. “It’s hard to see in here, though. Why is the light so fucking weird?”
They were edging away from the door, Sandrine so close behind that Ballard could feel her breath on his neck.