Eric's mind reeled and his sense of balance finally failed. Forgetting pride, he collapsed into the nearest chair. Ross didn't take her attention off him. Despite that, he curled his fists around his palms and pressed his knuckles against his trouser legs. He remembered looking toward First City's walls and thinking
He stared at the smooth, unmarked backs of his hands and fought to remember it had been ten years since he had told the Realm to go drown itself. Ten years of making his own life unburdened by the laws of the Nameless and the conflicts they bred. It was a freedom he could not, would not, just toss aside.
"Madame Chairman, I don't speak for anyone in the Realm. I left there and I have no intention of going back, or of getting myself caught up in whatever war you want to fight with the Vitae. I have business of my own to take care of that will use up my personal resources. I thank you for your hospitality and I hope I shall not have to impose on you for long. I shall pay for what I use, I assure you." He stood and found his knees held steady.
Ross pressed both palms flat against her desk top. "There is one other thing of which you should be aware, Sar Born."
Eric held himself still. "Which is?"
"Two unifiers, good people, friends of mine, died when the Vitae kidnapped your kinswoman."
Eric almost said "she's not my kin," but he stopped himself in time.
"There are Trustees and Board members here who want to publicize what those two died for. Do you have any idea what will happen to you, and to your world, if I let them?"
"I am sure, Madame Chairman, you will do exactly as you see fit whenever you see fit," said Eric. "And that there is nothing I could do or say to stop you.
"May I go now?"
He had to give her credit; she had obviously prepared herself for this possibility. She did nothing more than lean back in an attitude of resignation and wave toward the door.
"You are a free individual, Sar Born, you may come and go as you like. I have no claim on you. Especially since you say you will pay for what you use. One of my clerks will see that your debts are totaled and sent to your room."
Eric left. Behind him, Ross must have given notice that he was coming out, because the security man was waiting to remove his patches and the floor indicators were lit up with the way back to the courtyard clearly marked. An auto waited for him with the door raised.
He climbed in. The door closed. It was then he realized he had no planet ID to enter to make the thing move.
Eric leaned back in the seat, closed his eyes and began to curse. He did it slowly and methodically, using all the blasphemies in all the languages he knew. He even added some he hadn't heard since he'd been a student in the Temple. By the time he was finished, the entire complement of the Unifiers, and the Rhudolant Vitae, and their ancestors back seven generations had been manned, rendered impotent, ripped away from the shelter of any divinity, accused of bestiality, and blasted headfirst into the marshes the Notouch used for toilets.
A slight vibration trembled the soles of his shoes and the car began to move.
Eric's head jerked up. A voice spoke over the intercom. "Can't leave you alone for a moment, can I?"
"Dorias." A wave of relief washed over him followed fast by a wave of anger. "Dorias, were you listening to what your Madame Chairman said?"
"I was. We'll talk when we get to your room. I'm making it safe for us now."
The car traveled three kilometers' worth of tidy city blocks and finally parked itself in front of a three-story, brown brick building built like an abstract sculpture made of uneven blocks. The silver cables of access elevators stretched between its widespread wings. The car door raised itself and Eric picked up his bundle. As soon as he stepped onto the pedestrian walkway, the car door closed itself up and the vehicle drove itself away.
A second car pulled up in the spot his had vacated. Eric looked back automatically and saw Schippend heave himself out of the vehicle.
"Sar Born," he puffed. "I have your IDs, Sar."