Drily, Cormac stated, ‘Memory is something past, but experiencing a memcording is current.’
Jerusalem made no reply to that, but the link was made and the memcording flowed across. Cormac loaded it, experienced it. The first time through was hard for him, since the survival mechanism of memory always dulled the pain and the sickness originally experienced. The second time through, he saw it:
‘I would like to believe,’ said Cormac out loud, ‘that it is just an unfortunate accident that so critical a part of my memory is missing, but I am by nature a suspicious person.’
Jerusalem replied, ‘Your mind needs to heal further before it can accept that. It is something you did that you do not comprehend.’
‘Return it to me.’
‘I cannot. The human mind is a fragile structure at best. The memory of what you did then could be like the inverse of a keystone, especially with your mind in its present condition.’
‘I didn’t think I was that bad.’
‘Why do you think it has taken you so long to start reviewing your memories of that time? Doubtless the explanation to yourself is that only
Cormac wanted to sneer at that suggestion, but found he could not. Instead he said, ‘Can you at least tell me, in general, what I did?’
‘Oh yes: you used your own mind to translate your body through U-space,’ Jerusalem replied.
Cormac went cold. He shivered. That was purportedly what Horace Blegg could do, but Cormac no longer believed Blegg to be what he claimed. Could he be wrong about that? But he just could not encompass what Jerusalem had told him and felt himself teetering on the brink of some abyss. He tried to dismiss it, to focus on the now.
‘Is there anything else you are keeping from me?’ he asked.
Immediately another memcording arrived.
‘What is this?’ asked Cormac, not daring to open it.
‘To control you, Skellor linked into your mind, but as a consequence you were partially linked into his. This is something you picked up from there—his memory of how he actually obtained his Jain node.’
Cormac viewed it, experienced it: as if he himself stood upon the platform on Osterland and received from Jane von Hellsdorf a Jain node for the bargain price of ten shillings.
‘I should have known about this. This needs following up.’
‘Thorn, some dracomen, and a strange amalgam of the
Cormac reluctantly accepted that.
‘Jack and Aphran…’
Even as he spoke he sought information via the
Cormac returned his attention to the screen.
Dragon must now answer some hard questions for there were clear links between it, the Makers, and Jain tech arising here in the Polity. Cormac needed to decide what those questions should be, and how far he was prepared to go to obtain answers.