"Eight. Nine. Ten." Another imperceptible leap into the future, and the
In external terms: he would count to ten, skipping every second model-time moment . . . then forget having done so, and count again, going back and filling in the gaps.
And from his own point of view? As he counted, once only, the external world -- even if he couldn't see it -- was flickering back and forth between two separate regions of time, which had been chopped up into seventeen-millisecond portions, and interleaved.
The analogy was flawed, though. Relativistic transformations were smooth -- possibly extreme, but always continuous. One observer's space-time could be stretched and deformed in the eyes of another -- but it couldn't be sliced like a loaf of bread and then shuffled like a deck of cards.
"Every tenth state, in ten sets."
Paul counted -- and for argument's sake, tried to defend his own perspective, tried to imagine the outside world actually cycling through fragments of time drawn from ten distinct periods. The trouble was . . . this allegedly shuddering universe contained the computer which ran the whole model, the infrastructure upon which everything else depended. If its orderly chronology had been torn to shreds, what was keeping
"Every twentieth state, in twenty sets."
Nineteen episodes of amnesia, nineteen new beginnings.
(Unless, of course, he was the control.)
"Every hundredth state, in one hundred sets."
He'd lost any real feeling for what was happening. He just counted.
"Pseudo-random ordering of states."
"One. Two. Three."
Now he was . . . dust. To an outside observer, these ten seconds had been ground up into ten thousand uncorrelated moments and scattered throughout real time -- and in model time, the outside world had suffered an equivalent fate. Yet the pattern of his awareness remained perfectly intact: somehow he found himself, "assembled himself from these scrambled fragments. He'd been taken apart like a jigsaw puzzle -- but his dissection and shuffling were transparent to him. Somehow -- on their own terms -- the pieces remained connected.
"Eight. Nine. Ten."
"Both of me?"
Paul said, "Do me one small favor. The experiment is over. Shut down one of me -- control or subject, I don't care."
"Now there's no need to conceal anything, is there? So run the pseudo-random effect on me again -- and stay on-line. This time,
Of course; the broken vase problem all over again.
Paul said, "Record yourself, then, and use that."
The
"You did scramble
"Yeah? Then do it again."
Durham grimaced, but obliged.
Paul said, "Now, scramble
It looked just the same. Of course.
"Again."
"Just do it."
Paul watched, the hairs on the back of his neck rising, convinced that he was on the verge of . . .
He said, "When do we move on to the next stage?"
"Nothing's changed. I just want to get it over and done with."