On the Wings of Hope : Prose

Still recently solar sky suddenly began to become covered by clouds. They crept and crept one after another from the horizon, covering each other and quickly closing a firmament. After a ten-fifteen minutes time span the sky has become almost completely black. Soon the first lightning sparkled and rain began to drum on a roadway with its large juicy drops.

The storm was almost ready to be born.

The sky conducted its own sentence to each and every living one.

27.01.2011

To forgive

A blow. And yet another one.

Small streams of blood, flowing down from a torn apart skin.

Pain. Waves of pain, twitching the body in spasms, dimming the reason.

Desperate silent semi-cry, full of indescribable grief.

Angry face of the father, bent absolutely close. Naked wide-open eyes … a sight, filled with rage and fury.

Pain again, as always. More. Even more.

A lump of something warm, stuck in a throat, leaving no way to make a breath. A spittle on a floor - a spittle with blood.

- Father, stop it ! I b-b-b-b-e-e-e-g-g-g you … what f-o-o-r-r-r?!

- You, pitiful moron! Didn’t I tell you, that you must speak with adults politely and with all imaginable respect?! Especially with one such as I! How have you dared to call me an insect? How have you dared to name your father as such?! You, ungrateful degenerate! Take that, you, bastard! Take it, maggot!

A rattle, coming from a throat. It’s possible to breath no more.

- Stop it, now! Why are you beating my child again, you, fool! What sort of vile beast are you? Stop it now - you are going to kill him!

A voice of his mother, which had hardly reached his consciousness - silent and tender voice, which has become both firm as a stone and yet somehow completely broken. It always was like that when his father punished him. But yet no more than that.

- Silence, woman! You are not in position to give me orders here! I am in charge here, and you - you will carry out my will! That bastard has dared to call me an insect - and I do not forgive such foolishness! Did you hear me right?! I am a man to be proud and not some little pitiful louse - and I grant no forgiveness for such mistakes. Ever!

A new blow, time and again. How damn painful is that … His body didn’t become iron, no matter how strongly he thirsted for it in times …

And once again a voice of his mother breaches through the invisible veil - but this time it’s so quite … almost silent. How strange … does she speaks like that … or has he already ceased to hear?

A blow.

World changed - all sounds simply vanished. Judging by faces of his parents, it was obvious, that they were still arguing - but he heard them no longer.

It appeared that father shouted something once in response to his wife, but then, suddenly, confusion break through to his face, and he almost lowered his hand, carrying a weighty wooden club … But - just for an instance. Only partially. Suddenly his face once again altered his form to a furious and terribly repellent kind. He turned back to his child. Now. He is going to strike once more now …

A blow. A blow. A blow.

A breaking wood. A new flash of pain.

The world dimmed.

* * *

A low voice, caressing hearing like warm waves of a sea surf. A bent face of his mother over his own. A flowing calm song.

A mix of gray and fair hair. Gray-haired … But she, his lovely mum, was yet so young … I must have the strength to sustain it. I have to - no matter what. I am obliged. No other choice is an option. I must.

And the oblivion comes again.

He opened his eyes. Indeed, it’s still his world, the one he was born in. A kind one?

Mother, his dear mother has always been telling him, that this world is the one people see it - and the one they aspire to make it. The world becomes as such to every and each one. Good or evil, beautiful or ugly, full of incredible mysteries or totally senseless. It’s impossible to say how, but the personal world becomes as such, time and again.

He closed his eyes. The hearing was slowly returning, and his body, though hardly, was gradually starting to be felt.

Then he fell asleep once more - and has been sleeping for a long time. It seemed to him as if the whole eternity has passed before his sleeping eyes, though in reality it was, possibly, less than a whole day. He heard voices of people - heard their laughter and felt their joy. He exulted together with them, he sand with them all and his voice somehow intertwined in the common harmony of voices and then a song-joy, a song-triumph sounded even finer and happily. He rejoiced along with others - ones, able to rejoice. He loved life - despite obstacles, despite troubles. Indeed, he loved the life …

And then he suddenly woke up …

* * *

A young man woke up and shook his head somehow awkwardly, trying to drive away recent delusion of a beating. Was that really a delusion, though?