Love, Death and Robots. Volumes 2 & 3

Recidivism. Fancy word for girls with a compulsion. Like a nithead or a coke freak, but weirder, more self-destructive. At least being a junkie is fun. Who the hell chooses to live in dark apartments with shitty diapers, instant food, and no sleep for years on end? The whole breeding thing is an anachronism—twenty-first-century ritual torture we don’t need anymore. But these girls keep trying to turn back the clock and pop out the pups, little lizard brains compelled to pass on some DNA. And there’s a new batch every year, little burps of offspring cropping up here and there, the convulsions of a species trying to restart itself and get evolution rolling again, like we can’t tell that we’ve already won.

* * *

I’m keying through the directory listings in my cruiser, fiddling through ads and keywords and search preferences, trying to zero in on something that doesn’t come up no matter how I go after it. Dinosaur.

Toys.

Stuffed animals.

Nothing. Nobody sells stuff like that dinosaur. But I’ve run into two of them now.

Monkeys scamper over the roof of my car. One of them lands on my forward impact rails and looks at me, yellow eyes wide before another jumps it and they fall off the carbon petal pullout where I’m parked. Somewhere down below, suburban crumble keeps small herds of them. I remember when this area was tundra. It was a long time ago. I’ve talked to techs in the carbon sink business who talk about flipping the climate and building an icecap, but it’s a slow process, an accretion of centuries most likely. Assuming I don’t get shot by a crazy mom or a nithead, I’ll see it happen. But for now, it’s monkeys and jungle.

Forty-eight hours on call and two more cleanups and Alice wants me to take the weekend off and play, but I can’t. I’m living on perkies, now. She feels good about her work, and wants me all day. We’ve done it before. Lying together, enjoying the silence and our own company, the pleasure of just being together with nothing needing to be done.

There’s something wonderful about peace and silence and sea breezes twisting the curtains on the balcony.

I should go home. In a week, maybe, she’ll be back at worrying, doubting herself, thrashing herself to work harder, to practice longer, to listen and feel and move inside of music that’s so complex it might as well be the mathematics of chaos for anyone but her. But in reality, she has time. All the time in the world, and it makes me happy that she has it, that fifteen years isn’t too long to prepare for something as heartstoppingly beautiful as what she did with Telogo.

I want to spend this time with her, to enjoy her bliss. But I don’t want to go back and sleep with that dinosaur. I can’t.

I call her from the cruiser.

“Alice?”

She looks out at me from the dash. “Are you coming home? I could meet you for lunch.”

“Do you know where Maria got that dinosaur toy?”

She shrugs. “Maybe one of the shops on the Span? Why?”

“Just wondering.” I pause. “Could you go get it for me?”

“Why? Why can’t we do something fun? I’m on vacation. I just had my rejoo. I feel great. If you want to see my dinosaur, why don’t you come home and get it?”

“Alice, please.”

Scowling, she disappears from the screen. In a few minutes she’s back, holding it up to the screen, shoving it in my face. I can feel my heart beating faster. It’s cool in the cruiser but I break into a sweat when I see the dinosaur on the screen. I clear my throat. “What’s it say on the tag?”

Frowning, she turns the thing over, runs her fingers through its fur. She holds up the tag to the camera. It comes in blurry as the camera focuses, then it’s there, clear and sharp. ‘Ipswitch Collectibles’.

^{Of course. Not a toy at all.}

* * *

The woman who runs Ipswitch is old, as old a rejoo as I’ve ever met. The wrinkles on her face look so much like plastic that it’s hard to tell what’s real and what may be a mask. Her eyes are sunken little blue coals, and her hair is so white I think of weddings and silk. She must have been ninety when rejoo hit.

Whatever the name of it, Ipswitch Collectibles is full of toys: dolls staring down from their racks, different faces and shapes and colors of hair, some of them soft, some of them made of hard bright plastics; tiny trains that run around miniature tracks and spout steam from their pinky-sized smokestacks; figurines from old-time movies and comics in action poses: Superman, Dolphina, Rex Mutinous. And, under a shelf of hand-carved wooden cars, a bin full of stuffed dinosaurs in green and blue and red. A Tyrannosaurus rex. A Pterodactyl. The Brontosaurus.

“I’ve got a few Stegosauruses in the back.”

I look up, startled. The old woman watches me from behind the counter, a strange wrinkly buzzard, studying me with those sharp blue eyes, examining me like I’m carrion.

I pick out the Brontosaurus and hold it up by the neck. “No. These’re fine.”