Invisible man

            "Yeah, you damn sho caint hide."

            "I advise you to stay out of this," the marshal called.

            "Think you can come up here and hit one of our women, you a fool."

            "To hell with all this talk, let's rush that bastard!"

            "You better think twice," the white man called.

            I saw them start up the steps and felt suddenly as though my head would split. I knew that they were about to attack the man and I was both afraid and angry, repelled and fascinated. I both wanted it and feared the consequences, was outraged and angered at what I saw and yet surged with fear; not for the man or of the consequences of an attack, but of what the sight of violence might release in me. And beneath it all there boiled up all the shock-absorbing phrases that I had learned all my life. I seemed to totter on the edge of a great dark hole.

            "No, no," I heard myself yelling. "Black men! Brothers! Black Brothers! That's not the way. We're law-abiding. We're a law-abiding people and a slow-to-anger people."

            Forcing my way quickly through the crowd, I stood on the steps facing those in front, talking rapidly without thought but out of my clashing emotions. "We're a law-abiding people and a slow-to-anger people . . ." They stopped, listening. Even the white man was startled.

            "Yeah, but we mad now," a voice called out.

            "Yes, you're right," I called back. "We're angry, but let us be wise. Let us, I mean let us not . . . Let us learn from that great leader whose wise action was reported in the newspaper the other day . . ."

            "What, mahn? Who?" a West Indian voice shouted.

            "Come on! To hell with this guy, let's get that paddie before they send him some help . . ."

            "No, wait," I yelled. "Let's follow a leader, let's organize. Organize. We need someone like that wise leader, you read about him, down in Alabama. He was strong enough to choose to do the wise thing in spite of what he felt himself . . ."

            "Who, mahn? Who?"

            This was it, I thought, they're listening, eager to listen.

            Nobody laughed. If they laugh, I'll die! I tensed my diaphragm.

            "That wise man," I said, "you read about him, who when that fugitive escaped from the mob and ran to his school for protection, that wise man who was strong enough to do the legal thing, the law-abiding thing, to turn him over to the forces of law and order . . ."

            "Yeah," a voice rang out, "yeah, so they could lynch his ass."

            Oh, God, this wasn't it at all. Poor technique and not at all what I intended.

            "He was a wise leader," I yelled. "He was within the law. Now wasn't that the wise thing to do?"

            "Yeah, he was wise all right," the man laughed angrily. "Now get out of the way so we can jump this paddie."

            The crowd yelled and I laughed in response as though hypnotized.

            "But wasn't that the human thing to do? After all, he had to protect himself because --"

            "He was a handkerchief-headed rat!" a woman screamed, her voice boiling with contempt.

            "Yes, you're right. He was wise and cowardly, but what about us? What are we to do?" I yelled, suddenly thrilled by the response. "Look at him," I cried.

            "Yes, just look at him!" an old fellow in a derby called out as though answering a preacher in church.

            "And look at that old couple . . ."

            "Yeah, what about Sister and Brother Provo?" he said. "It's an ungodly shame!"

            "And look at their possessions all strewn there on the sidewalk. Just look at their possessions in the snow. How old are you, sir?" I yelled.

            "I'm eighty-seven," the old man said, his voice low and bewildered.

            "How's that? Yell so our slow-to-anger brethren can hear you."

            "I'm eighty-seven years old!"

            "Did you hear him? He's eighty-seven. Eighty-seven and look at all he's accumulated in eighty-seven years, strewn in the snow like chicken guts, and we're a law-abiding, slow-to-anger bunch of folks turning the other cheek every day in the week. What are we going to do? What would you, what would I, what would he have done? What is to be done? I propose we do the wise thing, the law-abiding thing. Just look at this junk! Should two old folks live in such junk, cooped up in a filthy room? It's a great danger, a fire hazard! Old cracked dishes and broken-down chairs. Yes, yes, yes! Look at that old woman, somebody's mother, somebody's grandmother, maybe. We call them 'Big Mama' and they spoil us and -- you know, you remember . . . Look at her quilts and broken-down shoes. I know she's somebody's mother because I saw an old breast pump fall into the snow, and she's somebody's grandmother, because I saw a card that read 'Dear Grandma' . . . But we're law-abiding . . . I looked into a basket and I saw some bones, not neckbones, but rib bones,  knocking bones . . . This old couple used to dance . . . I saw -- What kind of work do you do, Father?" I called.

            "I'm a day laborer . . ."

            ". . . A day laborer, you heard him, but look at his stuff strewn like chitterlings in the snow . . . Where has all his labor gone? Is he lying?"

            "Hell, no, he ain't lying."

            "Naw, suh!"