A child is bitten by a rat. The parent rushes to comfort him. But the bite on the
hand becomes septic and the child’s hand must be taken to preserve his life. That
day, the child’s life changes forever.
Or a child is bitten by a rat. The parent rushes to comfort him. The wound heals well
without a scar and all is well.
But it isn’t. The memory of the bite and the rat will be carried by the child for
the rest of his life. Even as a grown man, the sound of scuttling in the night will
make him waken bathed in sweat. He cannot work in barns or around granaries. When
his dog brings him a dead rat, he starts back in terror.
Such is the power of memory. It is fully as strong as the most feverish infection,
and it lingers not just for a period of sickness but for all the days of a man’s life.
As dye soaks fibers, drawn into them to change their color forever, so does a memory,
stinging or sweet, change the fiber of a man’s character.
Years before I knew that a man’s memories could be pressed into stone and waken as
a dragon, I still trembled before their power, and hid from them. Oh, the memories
I denied and concealed from myself, for they were too fraught with pain for me to
consider, as a child or as a man. And the memories I bled away from myself into a
dragon, thinking that I freed myself of a poison that would weaken me. For years I
walked, dulled to my life, unaware of what I had stripped away from myself. The day
the Fool restored those memories to me it was like blood pulsing through a numbed
limb, wakening it, yes, but bringing with it tingling pain and debilitating cramps.