Chickenhawk: Back in the World

The idea of going to my parents is just intolerable. They’ve already muttered a couple of I-told-you-so’s recently about trying to be a writer when I could have gone into real estate. I borrowed a thousand from Smith when we first got to Florida and still haven’t paid it back. Knox? Well, Knox is my agent, not a small loan company.

I’m standing on my mortgagor’s riverbank wondering what the fuck I’m going to do when the rest of the bad luck troupe arrives.

“Mason, I hear your goddamn car broke down,” says John Tiller-man, who’s walked up behind me.

I nod at the river. “You heard right, John.”

“Well, I came over to offer you a job.”

Job? John has told me he ferries sailboats around for rich people—you know, from their summer homes in Cape Cod to their winter homes in Saint Thomas and stuff—what kind of job can he have for me?

“A sailor job,” John says. “Pays good. How does thirty thousand for two weeks work sound to you?”

It takes my breath away, is how it sounds. Thirty thousand? I could live for three whole, restful years on thirty thousand dollars. I’d have all the time I need to finish my book. It’d change my life; that’s how it sounds. But then, I ask what kind of work a sailor can do for two weeks that’s worth thirty thousand to anyone.

I already know the answer to that. I just want confirmation. I’ve been approached by people a few times in the past about flying a plane load or a helicopter load of marijuana into the country. One trip, lotsa money was the common thread of these deals. I’ve always turned the offers down; never even knew if they were serious offers; didn’t want to know. I wasn’t against marijuana; I just knew I wasn’t cut out to wear stripes and get butt-fucked.

Times change. It feels like an inevitable thing is happening here—like a cosmic gift after so much bad luck. I’ve just gotten the sixth rejection letter for my book—writing is obviously not making me money. Two weeks on a dangerous mission could save my ass. And hey, I’ve had professional experience doing dangerous missions—it’s what I was trained to do. It is right down my alley.

I decide to be a pot smuggler.

Feeling a shot of adrenaline jolt me, I say okay.

John and I walk up to the cabin. Patience is just back from her paper route. I tell her I am sailing to Colombia.

Patience says, “I think that’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard of.” I say, yeah, uh-huh, but “John says I’ll make thirty thousand for two weeks’ work.”

Patience’s eyebrows rise and she cocks her head and wrinkles her brow and finally she says, “Oh.” And nods.

PART TWO THE SCAM

CHAPTER 12

November 1980—John Tillerman had been a helicopter door gunner in Vietnam in 1969, had chosen to move to the same woods I had, was also building his own house. We had similar backgrounds and interests when he offered me the smuggling job.

As people, we were quite different. Tillerman was big: six feet tall, 175 pounds; a sturdy man, strong, filled with energy bordering on frenzy. I was medium-sized, medium strength, and lazy. Tillerman set a dizzy pace, racing around making sure everybody was happy, which put some people on edge. He went to the University of Virginia after the war and graduated in 1974 with a major in psychology.

Patience had seen John walking down our road, found out he was a new neighbor, and brought him over to see our place. We told him we were trying to be writers, which seemed to impress him. He said he sailed yachts for a living.

As I got to know John—I’d wander up the quarter-mile sandy path between our properties and watch him and his uncle building his house—I learned that he’d taught himself to sail by building his own small boat and sailing it single-handedly to England and Portugal and back. He seemed to have plenty of money, which, he explained, was the consequence of his ferrying-yachts-for-rich-folks business. He was generous, the kind of person, I think, who’d be generous even if he was actually rich, rather than just flush. He insisted on lending me the money to buy an electric typewriter to replace the manual portable I’d been using, without setting a pay-back date. When we had car breakdowns on the paper route, he’d immediately offer his car or truck.

Tillerman was gone for weeks at a time. When he returned, he’d come down and tell Patience and me about his adventures at sea, describing the kinds of people he had to deal with—always portrayed in his stories as rich, selfish, dumb as stumps—and the perils of sailing. He described hair-raising storms that lasted days. He claimed pirates were boarding yachts in the Caribbean and killing everybody on board just to get boats to sell to drug smugglers. I liked the stories because I liked adventure and I’d always wanted to sail, but John’s drinking habit—something I understood very well—often made his tales repetitious and tiresome. I wondered if I was like John when I drank.