Dave had a unique gift; he could describe any number of girls in minute
detail, and still make then all sound alike. He was probably right, at
that. I let the anatomy lesson chatter on; it was something else
familiar, and I needed everything I could get. I couldn’t drive away the
night. It obstinately refused to fade; indeed, little details kept
leaping back at me, bright and clear – the gleaming patch of water and
its entangled masts, the heavy tang of those roots, the woman’s
jewellery jingling lightly as she drew sword, the hidden tremor in Jyp’s
voice. There was no getting away from it. Last night either something
had happened,
At last Dave went in search of coffee, and left me alone to face my dilemma. Faced it had to be. Why couldn’t I just let this fade, he way it had the first time? Or was that only madness, too? I could run the same computer checks again, but what would that tell me? Couldn’t I remember any other solid facts but that one ship name? Then I hesitated. There was something … The jingle of that woman’s jewellery, Mall’s jewellery – that voice of hers telling the Wolves to get away, get back on board that hulk …
Pretty evidently she’d spat out the name of the Wolves’ ship, or of one crewed by them. What if I –
Quickly, looking around anxiously to see if Clare or anyone was coming,
I logged onto the harbour register once again, and tapped in the name as
I guessed it must be spelt.
The search screen stayed up only a second or two. Then it blinked and scrolled down into the usual file card.
I closed my eyes. What next? If I typed in
But there the entry was, when I opened my eyes. There was no fooling myself, not this time, no writing this off as drunken romanticism or nightmares. After last night I knew the difference only too well.
I wasn’t even mad. And if I wasn’t, perhaps a great many other people weren’t, either. Beneath the blandly obvious surface of things there must be all kinds of dark undercurrents stirring; and perhaps they, like me, had swum blindly into one and been borne away, kicking, far beyond their depth.
Jyp had been right to boot me out. I was a creature of the surface, of the shallows; I’d no resources to help me cope. Suddenly I was afraid to confront the world I knew, the world I thought I’d come to some kind of truce with. Never mind sticking to everyday life now, moving on rails – I wouldn’t even dare trust that, not any more. How could I believe the blandly ordinary appearance of things now? How was I to know some other, stronger current wasn’t lurking in the depths beneath, ready to sweep me away?
The telephone on my desk began to ring. It had a soft, warbling call, but I jumped and sat staring, heart pounding, as if it were the chatter of a rattlesnake. Then Dave came back in, and with a hasty snort I extinguished the screen with one hand and picked up the phone with the other.
‘A Mr Peters to speak to you, Steve,’ said Clare. ‘About a private shipping matter, is all he says, so he wants you personally. Are you feeling up to dealing with him?’
‘Oh, put him on,’ I sighed. Every company in our line gets its share of private individuals wanting to ship Auntie’s armchair or their bargain grandfather clock over to America, that kind of thing; we usually referred them to specialist movers. But when the smooth voice came on the line I changed my opinion.
‘Mr Stephen Fisher? But of course!’ The English was too impeccable, and
accented.
‘Then I’m sorry –’ I began. Once in a while we also attract cagey characters wanting to exploit our reputation to ship large anonymous crates without attracting customs attention; them we fend off, hastily.
‘Over the telephone, I should say. To you in person, of course, there need be no problem of commercial security. But the matter is urgent. If I might assume the liberty of calling upon you later this afternoon, say around four-thirty, would I find you in?’