for what he did. Or rather some possible justifications?"
Kay looked at him scornfully. "That's the first time I've seen the lawyer side of you,
Tom. It's not your best side."
Hagen grinned. "OK. Just hear me out. What if Carlo had put Sonny on the spot,
fingered him. What if Carlo beating up Connie that time was a deliberate plot to get
Sonny out in the open, that they knew he would take the route over the Jones Beach
Causeway? What if Carlo had been paid to help get Sonny killed? Then what?"
Kay didn't answer. Hagen went on. "And what if the Don, a great man, couldn't bring
himself to do what he had to do, avenge his son's death by killing his daughter's
husband? What if that, finally, was too much for him, and he made Michael his
successor, knowing that Michael would take that load off his shoulders, would take that
guilt?"
"It was all over with," Kay said, tears springing into her eyes. "Everybody was happy.
Why couldn't Carlo be forgiven? Why couldn't everything go on and everybody forget?"
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She had led across a meadow to a tree-shaded brook. Hagen sank down on the grass
and sighed. He looked around, sighed again and said, "In this world you could do it."
Kay said, "He's not the man I married."
Hagen laughed shortly. "If he were, he'd be dead now. You'd be a widow now. You'd
have no problem."
Kay blazed out at him. "What the hell does that mean? Come on, Tom, speak out
straight once in your life. I know Michael can't, but you're not Sicilian, you can tell a
woman the truth, you can treat her like an equal, a fellow human being."
There was another long silence. Hagen shook his head. "You've got Mike wrong.
You're mad because he lied to you. Well, he warned you never to ask him about
business. You're mad because he was Godfather to Carlo's boy. But you made him do
that. Actually it was the right move for him to make if he was going to take action
against Carlo. The classical tactical move to win the victim's trust." Hagen gave her a
grim smile. "Is that straight enough talk for you?" But Kay bowed her head.
Hagen went on. "I'll give you some more straight talk. After the Don died, Mike was
set up to be killed. Do you know who set him up? Tessio. So Tessio had to be killed.
Carlo had to be killed. Because treachery can't be forgiven. Michael could have forgiven
it, but people never forgive themselves and so they would always be dangerous.
Michael really liked Tessio. He loves his sister. But he would be shirking his duty to you
and his children, to his whole family, to me and my family, if he let Tessio and Carlo go
free. They would have been a danger to us all, all our lives."
Kay had been listening to this with tears running down her face. "Is that what Michael
sent you up here to tell me?"
Hagen looked at her in genuine surprise. "No," he said.
"He told me to tell you you could have everything you want and do everything you
want as long as you take good care of the kids." Hagen smiled. "He said to tell you that
you're his Don. That's just a joke."
Kay put her hand on Hagen's arm. "He didn't order you to tell me all the other things?"
Hagen hesitated a moment as if debating whether to tell her a final truth. "You still
don't understand," he said. "If you told Michael what I've told you today, I'm a dead
man." He paused again. "You and the children are the only people on this earth he
couldn't harm."
It was a long five minutes after that Kay rose from the grass and they started walking
back to the house. When they were almost there, Kay said to Hagen, "After supper, can
you drive me and the kids to New York in your car?"
"That's what I came for," Hagen said.
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A week after she returned to Michael she went to a priest for instruction to become a
Catholic.
From the innermost recess of the church the bell tolled for repentance. As she had
been taught to do, Kay struck her breast lightly with her clenched hand, the stroke of
repentance. The bell tolled again and there was the shuffling of feet as the
communicants left their seats to go to the altar rail. Kay rose to join them. She knelt at
the altar and from the depths of the church the bell tolled again. With her closed hand
she struck her heart once more. The priest was before her. She tilted back her head
and opened her mouth to receive the papery thin wafer. This was the most terrible
moment of all. Until it melted away and she could swallow and she could do what she
came to do.
Washed clean of sin, a favored supplicant, she bowed her head and folded her hands
over the altar rail. She shifted her body to make her weight less punishing to her knees.
She emptied her mind of all thought of herself, of her children, of all anger, of all
rebellion, of all questions. Then with a profound and deeply willed desire to believe, to
be heard, as she had done every day since the murder of Carlo Rizzi, she said the
necessary prayers for the soul of Michael Corleone.