By late 1999, Susan was in what she called “my own private hell” dealing with her husband’s addiction. She was also undergoing fertility treatments and eventually got pregnant. Jerry had new management and was dealing with his own addiction issues during this period. During this period of inactivity, there was a major milestone in Susan’s life. On June 28, 2000, she gave birth to a daughter, Lillian Jean Cornell, the couple’s first and only child.26
About a week after the end of the
Nearly a year after the
“What the fuck is going on, Jerry?”
Jerry played him some of the material, and Jerden didn’t like it. “It was horrible. It was all out of time, the songs went on for, like, I don’t know how long. They were like really bad jam sessions,” he said. “We got to do this right. You and I both worked together before.”
“No, I like it.”
At that point, Jerden said, “Jerry, this isn’t going to work,” and effectively ended his role in the project. With Jerden having bailed out, his manager—who also owned the studio—called Elan Trujillo and gave him explicit instructions not to do or record anything with Jerry. Trujillo knew something had gone down but was not privy to specifics. At one point, he was alone in the control room with Jerry in the studio, saying, “Come on! Let’s fucking record this, man! Roll the tape, dude!” Though it pained him because he very much wanted to, Elan had to tell Jerry he couldn’t do it on his boss’s orders. Jerry was furious and stormed out of the studio. Jerry later said, “I started with Dave Jerden. I worked with him for one day, and then I fired him!”29
In retrospect, Jerden said if Jerry liked the material so much, he should have been producing it himself, which is what happened. He also said they have since patched things up. “Jerry and I have discussed it since then and there’s no hard feelings. I will never say anything bad about Jerry Cantrell. Jerry Cantrell is a great guy.”
The making of
“It was difficult to make it one album,” Jerry said. “But I was on a new label, and I’d already been through a year of trying to find a fucking company that wanted to put it out. Nobody wanted to do it. So I made a compromise, which was to put it out as a single album first, with the promise that, at some point, it would be released as I intended it.” Lyrically, Jerry described the material as “what I was going through with Alice coming to a stop, looking at a situation where I had to move on, and not really being happy about it.” The album was scheduled for release on June 25, 2002.30